Day 2/14. I meant to post this yesterday. I am gaining more confidence that I can complete this challenge.
Day 11/14. It seems that I’m beginning to control my urges. The uncomfortable feeling and the need to release is still there though. I honestly would like just to release at this point, I don’t care about P! Anyway, I’m working a lot on my self and I’m dealing with many contrasting emotions, which I’m recognizing and investigating with no judgement or attachment. Martial arts, power lifting and meditation are helping in the process. The road is still long.
Go strong, stay strong, last for long! You can do this! For me, relapses just make things worse.. ironically, I have always thought before the relapse "just a little bit of p..." but there is no such thing as just a little bit of p... it always ends in a major overdose. Luckily for me that is NEVER going to happen again.
Thank you! I'll stay strong. And you're right, it always ends in a binge, which is the real problem: waste of time, energy and life. I like your determination.
I'm sorry. I've been there so many times. The good thing I learnt is to see things as a process and from a distance. You'll see all the progress you made so far. A reset or relapse is often part of a bigger path of change.
Dom Don't be angry.Be happy that you are back on the horse it will make you more determined to complete this challenge