[365-CHALLENGE] THE THREE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FIVE DAYS CHALLENGE !

16/365 days down. I feel really good at the moment!

 

Day 10 completed ...

 

32 days strong!

 

you did 30 days ,so you can do another 30 days on a new 30 days that you are gonna do.
i believe in you.
just remember life is hard and prepare yourself for a chaos times. after passing one chaos you will go up one level.

 

32

i felt down a bit at morning ,so i found myself searching some pix of women(the curve one or the ones that was interesting for me in the past) ,then i went to a porn site to watch two lady that was touching each other but ,i caught myself , then i started to do things related to my healthy schedule.
this addiction makes one body unstable and one lose its power of thinking wisely at that time and in a long run it also weaken the ability of prediction.
and i am happy to see the photos that was trigger for me ,now have lost its power. in fact i changed my belief and subsequently my body respond differently than the past.

 

Check-in day 116 of 365.

 

Despite my best efforts and slightly optimistic mindset I still ended up binging yet again from 7:30 pm to 12am. Any one with suggestions of how I can break this 'binge fest' cycle?

I think I will read an inspirational book today from cover to cover just for the feel good factor and motivation I need to get through this day. I will brain wash myself.

 

Yes! I know I can go for a long time without PMO. It's getting back on track that is the issue. Also, I just began questioning whether i really want to quit porn yesterday and today. To be honest, when I watched porn yesterday, it felt really good, to be in a fantasy and be a boss. Porn has been a reliable friend in the tough and horrid times but then again after the trance life is still the same. The same problems still exist. They don't go anywhere. In fact, they get worse because of neglecting them and being delusional.
The thing I need to do most is get back to my meditations. For some reason I can't get myself to calm down during the meditation as my thoughts are all over the place. However, I will give it another chance.

 

I think you need to be very careful my brother. You don't want to be in my situation. These slips will aggregate and become a relapse. Even just taking a peek at erotic material can reactivate your "porn brain". I know that for a fact and I am paying for it right now. For your sake, do not reason whether its just soft core material and it won't do any harm. Porn is porn whether in soft or hard format.

 

Day 72.

 

Today is day 98 two more days I'll have a hundred. Then it's on 120 180 275 365, and the time that I've typed this I'm not much closer to the end number

 

Almost day 5. I was feeling a bit lustful this morning and began having thought about P. It was only very brief and then I started counting back from 6 and my mind came back to me.

I need to be mindful of wandering thoughts, they are definitely a trigger.

 

Day 143/365

 

Day 5/365

 

15 days completed

 

TBH, I really don't have any suggestions..... infact, I fear I might relapse anytime for I can believe myself for anything but not this...

All I can say..... not anymore......and yeah an inspirational book will be great

 

Day 8 completed
Was really busy again with the internships.I hardly have time left to sleep.Keep yourself busy everyone.

 

I lived my entire life as an average person. In my studies, I was average. At sports, I was below average. I look too skinny. I have not found a single field where I feel I am unbeatable. But when I went deeper. I realized that I am average only because I put an average amount of efforts. The truth is I am not hardworking. The truth is I am not consistent. I start something and then leave it behind. I have set up thousands of goals and then gave up on them. I kept telling myself bullshit excuses. But, now the game is changed. I am not the same person. I am not going to consider myself as a loser due to my past failures. I have brought hunger, love care and I have left my fears, my frustrations in the fucking past behind. I am going to read as much as I can, I am going to be super productive. I am going to do all the things that I planned to do. I am not going to be skinny anymore. I am not going to procrastinate anymore. I am not going to watch porn anymore and I am not going to be average anymore. I am going to keep my promises. I am going to live the life to the fullest. I am going to unleash my true potential.

 

Fighting with PMO like a HULLLLKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!
DAY 14 and I am just getting started.

 

day 89/365