Day 2 of 90. I'm hanging out with friends and I feel alive and happy. I'm controlling my urges pretty well. 88 days left
I was on day 4 and made out with my wife.Though its not a relapse but i will consider this as one as my goal is semen retention. Day 0
8/90 Already feeling stronger and more clear minded. Here's to another 8 days. Stay strong men. For the amazing woman in our lives.
Things that helped me the most is going to a SAA meetings and being around people like myself who are dealing with the same issues. I try to do things that keep me busy. Also finding out what your triggers are helps out a lot.
Hi there, I'm back on the forum's. My last streak went horrible. Could abstain from porn for a week. I can do that most of the times. But after a week I mostly have a tiny relapse followed by a major binge. This happened to me again. I went on vacation for 3 weeks. No PM all the time. But I was already fantasizing about new content to watch when I would come home. At home I abstained for some more days. I moved out of my house to a new place where I had no internet. Then I started watching a bit on my phone from someone else's wifi. When i got my internet I binged for hours. Couldn't make love to my girlfriend three days later. Almost got a panich attack when she started touching me becasue of fear of her finding out and me losing her. I told her what I did. She reacted with vey soothing words. I know I do not deserve her kindness and love. I have lied to her many times by not telling her about me watching porn again. I know the way out is to be truthfull about the whole situation but the shame is too much for me. Also I have become quite adapt in lying to people I hold dear. I resent this aspect of me. I want to rid it of me. So that's why I'm back, to try quiting porn for the bizzillion time. I want to change other bad habits too. I game, drink and smoke a lot. Also I drink a lot of coffee and eat a lot of sugar and fats. I want to break free from my masters. Yet, a live of slavery has left me broken. My willpower seems non existant at times. I'm afraid i'm stuck. I made an appointment with a proffesional today. Hoping that some outside support can help me. Good luck all, you'll be hearing of me.
3/90. Need to focus on the consequences of actions, not the actions themselves. Knowing the end result will keep me from going after the wrong things
relapse. day 0 zero again. here´s a great video that help me get back on track. i share it with everyone because i think it has a very important message:
meditate daily, it´s pretty good to stay calm and emotional balance. also workout is good. when urges drop in just ignore them, continue doing what you are doing. urges will pass, no matter how strong they seem.