I knew I could do it. I’m on the 90 day reboot thread and 365 thread too. Onwards and upwards. I still have pied and bad thoughts. Not depression but negative thoughts sometimes. You have to punch through. Keep going. Don’t fall for the traps, edging, looking at pics etc avoid YouTube on going online alone. I’ve deleted snapchat and even blocked Facebook and Instagram on my phone! Rant over! Peace
I know its bad to climb down the ladder from 20 to 0. More than as a challenge this 20 days give me more awakening of myself.More than a challenge its the best way to gain good quality life. So without shame I am going to try it again from 0. You know what this challenge is essential for me to know better my self.
When I follow this challenge about two weeks there is image of a lady will come into my mind all day like a ghost. She was there in my real life as an uncompleted desire of me. Her appearance in my mind will irritate me alot. I could not even sleep due to the thoughts of her. So I will choose porn to avoid her. There is were I am falling. I know sex with her never going to happen but she is a glitch in my mind. If you have any suggestions to avoid this behavioral pattern I am glad to know it. This is the second time I am falling in this challenge due to her presence in my mind. Real life I will try to avoid her but in my mind I cannot remove that desire .
I’ve done this many times. Each time is a improvement. You’re restarting but from a strong foundation. Don’t binge. Do some press-ups. Sit-ups. The 20 days haven’t been wasted. You can do it
Day 27/30: 3 more days... I'm grateful for having A daily routine i love, that “gives me energy, pleasure, and the feeling that i've used my time for the things that are important to me.”