I don't know batman today was a day of urges ,,, im just managing not to M, i see some people with lot more days than me though in nofap, @Ginny Weasley you have the power to change the world with you keep up the good work you have been doing , its very admirable ....
I am avoiding P and anything Triggering completely as much as possible which is making a big difference in my nofap journey , P is the bane of my existence avoid it , things change i guess .....
Caught up once again my friends.Likely won't be online this weekend so I will see you all Monday morning! Stay strong and Hold the line!
Another strike today. Same thing as yesterday. I'm really sorry, I haven't avoided M seriously lately. Instead of fighting the urges I try to get rid of them as fast as possible by doing M in fear of that the urge will nag me all day and lead to P. But of course this mindset only solves the problem for the time. I have to work on how to move away from urges and thoughts that pop up in my brain.
Sigh... Another strike to report today. I'm in a tough place at the moment PMO-wise. I had very strong urges to watch porn today, the last few weeks have been tougher than ever before in that regard. And I have to become much better at pushing away those thoughts at an early stage. I didn't watch porn, nor psubs nor binge, but I did masturbate. I know I can do better than this...
Hey man, it seems like you've been struggling quite a lot recently, my advice (not that im an expert) would be to try something different. Its the famous "the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results", I really dont mean to sound judgemental or anything, i just want to see you succeed and it seems like your current strategy isnt working. It may be time to take a step back and reevaluate your game plan. Anyway, thats just my friendly advice. God lick and all the best
Thanks for being honest. I did.Thanks batman! As always thanks for reporting.You really can do better than this and you have to now before you end up using P.
Another Monday is here so as always Hold the line! @DeservedCriticism @Castielle you both need to check in soon.
Thanks for the support Batman! Yes, I've been figuring out some practical things I can do to avoid these situations for the time being such as studying less from home different etc. However I have to focus on what I do with the thoughts when urges come up for long term success. And I'll try harder to avoid masturbation, and stop the train of thoughts and actions at earlier stages. Yesterday evening I witnessed something that really stuck with me which I would like to share with you. I was traveling in the subway and few meters away there was a group of friends. A number of relatively drunk football supporters entered the subway and one of them sat down opposite of a girl in the group and started to talk to her and her friends. A few stations later the supporters were getting off. Just before leaving this one supporter leaned over and forced a kiss on the lips of the girl. The girl flinched and was clearly shocked and disgusted. Nobody in the area, including me, reacted to the situation. Internally I felt really moved by what I had seen in a negative way. I know that might sound stupid, I know that women have to suffer in similar situations all the time, but I had never really been in contact with this myself, especially not in such a mundane situation as commuting. I feel really sorry about how normalized these situations are in society. I can't really understand how it must feel like to get your personal integrity violated in such a way and am disgusted by the man's behavior and of course really think that this has to change, and in many ways I live my life in accordance to that. But at the same time, by watching porn, or even considering that as an option, I am putting more women in much worse situations than what I witnessed and am normalizing what I saw. In the same way as that man felt that it was his right to get hands on that woman's body I'd do the same. I would be as bad, or worse than him. Sorry for long rant, I have realized this in theory for a long time but something just fell in place that made me reevaluate my situation. Hopefully this can be to some help in tough situation I am in now.
Sorry, been super busy. I do have one strike to report since last time I checked in. *two strikes actually