13/90 I have experienced a refusal of a loved person many times. Lastly yesterday. The most absurd thing is that a woman is not too beautiful at all. I think now it will be much easier for me to end this challenge, because I will believe even more in myself because of anger and disappointment. What do you think???
Day 12 complete. Very tired and in a bad mood this morning. Had some euphoric recall last night. Really craving caffeine too. But I know this will pass in time.
Day 12 (I guess because on Mobile the days weren't shown) It's a really hardtime for me. Also I'm afraid that I'm going to a flatline. Unmotivated, uncomfortable, lazy... but I got sooo much to do. Can't take a break. Really wish that I can move out to a single 3-room apartment where I can do my things better calmer
1 brothers, you know what happen? yesterday i make the true decision of never watch porn again. as i told you before, i was in this indecision for the last months to just make the 90 days, be free from the addiction and then try to have a controled aproach towards porn/softcore. just fap to porn once in a while. i see now that this vision is impossible, it became pretty obvious to me that i will never control this. if i start using porn here and there quickly the old neuro connections will start lighten up again and i would be using porn often, the way i do now. plus i read dozens of testimonys of ex-porn addicts, i didn´t find not even one that broke free from porn and then start using porn in a moderate way. no. you can´t come back from this. it´s all in. so we have 2 choices: we life our life in a natural, energetic, joyful way or we choose porn and the hell that comes with it. i made my choice. onwards brothers.
30 days in the books! Want to keep myself accountable, though, and set some boundaries and not go down a slippery slope. I watched a couple episodes of a show, after not finding anything else I wanted to watch on Netflix. I like the main actor and it's a funny show, but it also has nudity and sex scenes from time to time. Plus, it's about a female wrestling show and the actresses are scantily clad a lot. Some people can handle watching shows like that, but I could see some lust coming up in my mind and objectification. I didn't MO or PMO, I can't say it was even edging, but just want to be careful I don't start justifying something that is a slippery slope, so I'm going to avoid that show for now while continuing this reboot. This addiction wants to find ways to get us to go back to it. I put this post in a couple places just to encourage everyone to be careful with what we watch and to be careful about justifying and rationalizing things. Hang in there everyone, stay vigilant!
Day 3 down, I know I haven’t got a porn addiction but I have a strong feeling it’s a dopamine overload that’s got me the way I am. I hope I make it through and fix my dopamine receptors. Onto day 4!
Keep coming back on here, never give up, just today porn is not an option, good luck @RiseToGreatness you can do this!
I hear you, it can be so difficult! But the good news is: you can most certainly do this, it most certainly gets easier after a bit, and it certainly is worth it to do this.