Day 35 (5 weeks) complete Day 36 underway 2nd wet the dream within the last 3 days this morning. Urges became quite intense for me before wet dreams occurred, though I continue to simply not touch myself and let the urges leave. 1st wet dream felt so real, I thought I had messed up. Thankfully just dreams.
Been busy over the last few days and haven't been able to get on. So here's check in for days 47, 48 and 49.
Day 10 - I don't come here often since counting days places too much pressure on me. I do however want to show and share the growth of my journey. For those continuing their porn-free journey, please keep it up. For those considering it, jump on in. You'll be a better person for it.
motivate yourself everyday. everyday read a text or see a video to remind you to why you NEED to do this. this is a life changing task, you must be 100% with the right mindset because your addictive mind will have no mercy on you. see who you want to become. motivate yourself. don´t try, DO. here´s a little push
17 Terrible day today, brain fog hit me hard and i felt a heaviness on my head all day long. In the same kind of the worst withdrawal days . i guess i drank a little too much on Christmas, i try to refrain myself but still the side effects appeared. Honestly i just don´t know anymore how much is enough, so it´s better to stay away from all quantity of alcohol, it´s the second time i say that, but i´m really tired of being a zombie. The rewiring is tough and with alcohol in the mix it really gets tougher. Luckly i´m not addicted to booze, so fuck this. I´m compromising myself to stay clean the 90 day´s. it´s just not worth taking the risk. onwards brothers.
Day 62 I did have a wtf monent today to be honest. For a split second I was becoming my old self. I thought of opening my tabs in the private mode and forget all my issues momentarily. It will only make evreything worse. I'm such a nervous a hole, I dont think I can stand another relapse now that I am working and I'm in my first job. I don;t wanna fuck it up. I need to let go of my old self. I've gotten used to myself as the guy who just faps to nude pics and P videos and postpone his work indefinitely. Although I'm not much of a social guy and extrovert before...i don't want to be fucking loser. If I'm an anti-social introvert, thats ok with me, atleast I want to be a confident guy who is trying to do right things. I need to learn not to see every women as sex object..it really shook me up when I saw the girl at the counter and started thinking about her in the wrong way. I don't blame myself because years and years of nude imaged i've fapped to, they have some sort of pull over me. Its not going to be easy.not now..not ever...but I gotta be STRONG now and ever!!! When I have purpose in my life and do something that gets me closer to my goals, i then think I will develop some self confidence. PS: I've started using the challenge threads as my journal entries lol, coz everytime i started a journal i was never consistent so I am doing this. Godspeed everyone!!!
Day 31/90 let's go brothers! I'm so motivated to start a new month with you guys! Keep those days coming!
