Day 3 of 14 done Day 15 of my overall streak done I do have some urges, but no real attraction towards MO and certainly not P, I completely refrain from behaviour/actions that regularly lead to MO. Yesterday I saw a movie with extended sex scenes and it did not bother me at all. Sleeping can still be an issue from time to time, I dream about relapsing, about ex girlfriends etc., but no nocturnal emissions or anything.
Friends, I failed. Day 0/14 After a great day with my family, they went to sleep and I stayed alone alone in the TV Room watching a friend that was playing with his band in a famous TV show. When the urge came, I tried the panic button and watched the content for a while, but I was already on a M. The notebook was close and suddenly I was on a 4 hour PMO Session. It was dirty like always, and I was disappointed that I couldn't resist so much to something so gross. The good thing about all this is that I'm ready to start again, and to lose a battle doesn't mean you've Lost the war. We're together, and we can do It.
Day 0/14! (14, not 14 factorial). I've just finished the 3 and 7 day challenges so I'm moving onto this one. Hope everyone is making progress
Congrats on getting to 12 days. Out of 13 days you pmo only once. Thats progress. And your honesty is great. I know how you feel. My longest streak was 18 days. I entered into the new year at day 12 of the 18 days. I felt i would continue pmo free for the rest of the year but sadly i fell and it really messed me up. Since then I've not been able to get to that streak again. It was while searching for solutions online that i found this forum. Even though I've not been able to get the 14day streak. Knowing i am not alone in this struggle has been helpful. The truth is the fact that we are still falling means there are still some doors in our life that we have left open, some doors we know,but some we dont. And i guess we have to find all the doors and have them closed to be porn free. Some of this doors, we may get to know them after we fall. I thought i was gonna keep silent but your honesty has encouraged me to share. I pmod this morning after struggling throughout the night. i woke up in the middle of a porn dream and sadly i continued it in reality due to strong urges. I have never pmod in the morning, talk more of a sunday morning before church. Fortunately, i know what door i left open and with God's help, i can close it. I also intend to find and flush out any other thing that may be causing me to fail. God bless us all.
@Froger you are right. In this forum , we have to be honest. After all, even if we lie to others, we cannot lie to ourselves. And if we are not honest about our weakness, how are we going to overcome them. I had read in the rebooting basics pdf that, being vulnerable is not a sign of weakness, but it means accepting that we are human and we make mistakes. It makes us more emotionally strong. I am going to start again. Thanks for being there.Yes Sunday morning..may make you feel awful.Here we all are there for each other. Yes some more doors need to be closed by developing a stronger willpower. Does anyone do the cold shower, pushups, exercise etc. to overcome urges?
I Haven't tried it. And at what point would i apply it. Is it when the urge is very strong or is at the onset of feeling urge?
I Haven't tried it. And at what point would i apply it. Is it when the urge is very strong or is at the onset of feeling urge?
So after 16 days of no PMO I relapsed last night, but I am not feeling bad in the slightest way about it. I did not use P and do not have any desire to do so, and that is the ultimate goal for me, getting rid of P or P substitutes. I will start this challenge again. Day 0 of 14