@Froger you are right. In this forum , we have to be honest. After all, even if we lie to others, we cannot lie to ourselves. And if we are not honest about our weakness, how are we going to overcome them. I had read in the rebooting basics pdf that, being vulnerable is not a sign of weakness, but it means accepting that we are human and we make mistakes. It makes us more emotionally strong. I am going to start again. Thanks for being there.Yes Sunday morning..may make you feel awful.Here we all are there for each other. Yes some more doors need to be closed by developing a stronger willpower. Does anyone do the cold shower, pushups, exercise etc. to overcome urges?