17 days completed.....today i had lots of urges and even had a wet dream..today was bad but I did not relapse.....no problem moving on
Thanks. Will try running or swimming. First few days were great but now I feel dull discomfort that keeps building up almost like a feeling of heat.
Day 5 I feel good, I have met really nice people, i can see myself in all of them like a mirror, i find myself talking to them adn then i can do the same with me, it is all in my mind... everything is inside. and i feel myself going up with this.
there is something i did to go with this process. I wrote all the moments in my life (childhood) where I felt-hummilliation, abuse( not only sexual but maybe you had to do something you did not have to do) , abandoned, rejected or distrust. I made a list and i started to write a letter to you but when you where a little boy/girl ( you imagine the specific moment you felt the feeling) you tell you love him/her, that the adult you is there for supporting, hugs and kisses wherever you want to tell to your little you, and that he can forget ( you say abandone or reject or distrust depending the case) then you change from your place and sit down in a different position and imagine your child version receiving the letter in the moment you imagine this happened... so you imagine the kid and write a response to the adult you with your left hand telling you are happy that the adult you is there, / i wrote this/: i felt bad and sad and abuse but now that you are here i feel better i feel the company).. the adult changed the position and read the letter the kid wrote. this with everything that happened in your chilhood that makes you feel bad. it worked for me since I understood this condition is just a way out but the real proble came from aour childhood and how we reacted to some situations in the past.
Day 28, no temptations and feel like I am "on top of the world", as the Karen Carpenter song goes. Never felt so peaceful and happy since I was a ages 3-12. Once I hit 13 3/4 and fapping started, it was downhill as I navigated all the media I could find, magazines, to TV to VHS, to Slow speed internet, to the highly addictive high speed internet. Hard to believe I discovered my PPP - penis pleasure principal...(I think I just coined a new phrase. LOL at 13 reading a novel my parents had called something like, All About Sex, with no videos or pics in it. Stay strong everyone, I will post my Day 1 to 27 later on today or tomorrow.
N-now th-that that don't kill me Can only make me stronger I need you to hurry up now 'Cause I can't wait much longer I know I got to be right now 'Cause I can't get much wronger
Day 10/90 started. Submitted some of the important part of my project yesterday.feeling free for now. Again exam in 2days. Went gym yesterday. Slept nicely at night. Felt a little urge few minutes before. But overcame it. Cheers guys
Day 35/90. I learned today I don't have time for pmo. And all I have to do is schedule myself to only have time for workouts, work, and disciplining my crafts. Stay productive and engaged in the work you do, that will be the high and dopamine rewiring and triggers to get myself onto the right track.
