1 day back on the clock Did not chase, so all good. Will write a bit more about relapsing. It started with peeking in the morning. (FYI nobody is missing anything! Still the same shit.) Was trying to decide if peeking counted as a reset. Then I did decide that I would reset my counter, because otherwise I wouldn't feel like I had completed the challenge properly. That didn't matter in the end, as I caved that night. One thing lead to another etc. What was also weird is that this time I had INSTANT regret. When I have managed to go a few days without at other times the O has been pretty mind blowing and THEN the regret has kicked in. The couple of days before my brain took a new tactic. Normally I crave looking at P. This time I was actually just wanting to feel horny and to M, without really the desire for P. Also I was definitely more interested in real women, and viewing them less as objects. Today, after relapsing, back to objectifying them a bit again. Anyway, I feel like I am making some progress. It is a journey. Each time I am managing to go for a while without it is helping and slowly building towards something better. That work is not being completely undone with one fail. Just got to keep trying and keep building! I will get stronger.
Day 6. Still going. After a busy day I was on the edge of losing my streak. I was tired in a business trip and I knew that I will be alone in the hotel. So I felt that I could not resist. Instead, I made a plan in my head to do some favourite things before going to bed (like: eating a chocolate, reading nofap, watching a comedy clip, having a semi cold shower,.... ) and fortunately I passed the day. Also, before sleep, sometime it works for me to make a list in my head about 40 small success or happy moment in my life. Before reaching number 40 I am sleep.
I love this! Going to try the gratitude list thing for sure! What a great way to end the day and fall asleep
First of all, well done! 24 days is awesome! Be pleased with that Now watch out for the chaser effect. This is when you will be tested most. Build upon the progress before by now aiming to go for even longer!
End of day 2. When those urges come they can be really powerful! This evening it was purely because I was just a bit bored and on my own. Even got as far as having the incognito window open. BUT, I want to be a better man. The only way that will happen is if I can leave that shit behind me. Be strong, people.