Checking in. I actually have a day and a half now. Last night i left my computer out in the car. It's amazing how much that simple act helps eliminate
Day 0: Its been almost a year since I have been trying to stop PMO. I remember when I came to this nofap and this challenge a year before and the people showering love and being so kind on me and others. I was just so much amazed with this support I made a streak of 33 days at first attempt. But I left nofap after 3 months . Here still the same can't change and fighting the inner demons and feeling regretted bruh .. Hope everyone is doing good and keep going!!!
7 days today. Yep, one week. Doing ok with this stretch where I'm on my own for a few days. Yesterday felt awful, first allergy attack of the season set it off. It's funny though, makes nofap easier when you're feeling sick. Oh well, I'll take it if it helps lol. I did not sleep well last night, but did have a realization this morning. This nofap challenge is not only about what we're avoiding, but what we're seeking. Stopping the damaging P cycle is one half of the process, the other half is finding something positive to replace it with. Our work is not only about learning more self-control, but also reflecting on what is important to us so that we can reach towards that as we move forewards.
Forgot which day I am on since I have not checked in for two days. This morning I was overwhelmed by my body's response to seeing women on the streets. My mammalian brain's mating program went to overdrive. I had to do deep breathing exercises and even sit down and meditate at one point to just calm things down. It was a stark reminder that in the end I am only human and can't override my biology. On the other hand, it also served to remind me that acting out is a choice. I am now calm. The storm is over for now.
Checking in for another day. I had my daughter with me yesterday and I'm always so tired the day after. One day at a time.