Thanks. That's one thing I do remember from my last relapse. The pain after it including the energy loss. Remembering that has helped prevent multiple relapses. I need to put more distance mentally and emotionally between myself and relapse. Right now it's day by day. I tell myself just make it to the next day.
165/365. 200 days to go! I've had my phone off for most of the past ~15 hours and it's been great. I've felt much more present and had almost no temptation. Maybe this should be a regular thing...
There are things you can do to make it so hard to access porn that you won't want to go to the trouble: Leave your cell phone someplace where you can't easily get to it, like locked in you car. Use a web browser like Google that you can add an effective adult filter to. Or only use your computer in public places, like a library or a coffee shop that has wifi. Or just get away from the computer altogether. It is just a matter of how badly you want to eliminate porn from your life. If there is a will, there is a way.
4/365 Tuesday will mark 1 week. I'm finding it's easier to control what goes on in my mind and what I do with my attention. Did a hot yoga class with attractive bodies in the room, consciously chose not to put my attention on them and I didn't. Much cleaner experience than in the past.
Gave in to the urge to reset the alarm this morning and so missed my workout and meditation. Tommorow it's up at 6. I did my 2nd day of cold shower though , it was no easier than the first. One day at a time
3 days more passed but look like I will not able to bear the pain of going against the wind of pmo any more as thoughts & fantasies are so strong in mind that will trigger my relapse any moment...frustration & depression is also increasing...look like all my energy is exhausted... I'm done for now...even though its day 46 but counting number of days is no more helpful
Intense sexual fantasies and too much Internet use made me relapse and forget the reason i started at first. I threw away 45 days the longest I've gone in 3 years. No time to brood, no time to slack. 1/ 365