okay so I relapsed yesterday on day 10 :/ I was doing great but I had a huge hangover after going out friday night. I think that's what made me relapse. Anyway that won't happen again, let's take it one day at a time. DAY 0
Day 1 I paid the price for overexuberant celebration after fully paying back two defaulted loans with the final instalments completed this past Friday. I was just over the moon that I am finally debt free and out of the hands of those pesky collection agencies from hell. I found myself 'rewarding' myself with porn somehow. Even in happy times, we can reward ourselves with porn. Pretty crazy! I am back on track and a heavy burden of debt finally lifted from my life. That anxiety is gone. I am going to simplify my life and live in a more minimalistic way.
Day 142 Brothers, great (and immensely positive) shifts in perspective inevitably result from our path of liberation from PMO. Blessings and renforcements be upon each of you. In each our of hearts dwells precious and intact the true happiness that we already are ! Amen
Guilt could never even touch you dear brother. Today you know more about yourself and walk safely towards freedom !
Hey there my friend. Have you ever thought about abstaining from alcohol, at least for a period of time, maybe 90 days or a year? Just a suggestion. Some find it super helpful, and who knows maybe you’ll find life goes smoother overall, not just in regards to porn. Anyway, just wish you well, all the best.
9 days done...started to get pulled in by some racy ads on FB, decided to post on here. Fairly intense desire for porn today, and it usually starts with peeking at something like that. Not today. Almost 10 days hard mode, and approaching two months no porn. Keep going!