C. One-Hundred. I decided to post on day 100 rather than on day ninety because it sounds more spectacular, and also because the number means more to me than ninety. Haven't had night emissions for a month now. I'm not in a flatline but I feel as if I was. That's because, without porn on my mind, I feel very good and relaxed. Brain fog is completely gone. Contact with nudes or similars is in the end inevitable, for example with films or photoes. But those images quickly faint away, leaving me to my serenity. See you in 50 days.
14/365 My girlfriend came back and has been trying to work things out with me.. Not really sure how to feel.. I wish this all wasnt so complicated.
A new day. Mentally and emotianally ive been in a uncomfortable place for the last few days which makes me more vulnerable to bad reactions and decisions. I let my daughters mother entice me into a finger pointing, anger filled text exchange. This is a no win thing for me. Even if i "win" the fight i feel like crap after. If i let her carry on without responding i may feel anger for a while but when that passes im at peace. I need to reset my default. To learn not to be swept away by destructive emotions and extend basic respect and kindness in spite of what im feeling. This is what im working toward. One day at a time
Guys, after my recent stumbles, I feel I need to try a shorter challenge before taking this one on again. Heading over to the 90-day thread I think. Will return once I've succeeded there. Keep fighting, my friends, never ever give up. Thanks for all your support.