The 6th Battled my way through another night of urges. I noted the time my urges started last night: 8:31 PM. I tried to observe the urges for a while but they were too strong. So distraction was the only way. I read Letting Go to its completion and slept at around 11:10 PM. That book is pretty dawn good. It has equipped me with knowledge on how to let go of negative feelings in a natural way. Change Your Brain Change Your Life (Daniel Amen) that I read last week shows the genesis of many addictions may be brain dysfunction in areas such as the pre-frontal cortex, anterior cingulate gyrus and limbic system. I took an online brain test recommended by Daniel Amen and found that I may have low function in my pre-frontal cortex no wonder I have trouble with focusing on a single task, struggle to control impulses and 'love' getting into conflicts with others. I am now taking steps to improve my pre-frontal cortex executive function. Apparently, porn addiction greatly lowers pre frontal cortex executive function so zero tolerance abstinence will have to taken more seriously. No excuses for peeking! I am now well armed to take my battle with PMO to the next level. I now know how brain dysfunction and past trauma associated with negative feelings may be at the foundation of my problems. I can now build a better strategy to deal with the underlying problems rather than deal with the symptoms and stop under estimating the scale of the problem.
Im glad you made it thru the urges. Ive been told i have severe add and im a big fan of daniel amen. I have his books and dvds. Im glad you mentioned how porn affects the prefrontal cortex. Keep up the strong desire brother.
Another day. Someone posted a david goggins video on here so before getting out of bed i watched a bit of it. Then i took a cold shower, did my pullups, 10 minutes meditation, chores and then made some calls to rustle up some business.When i start the day strong I always have a good day. What i do with my life is up to me. I also met a friend and played some chess this afternoon and after picking up my daughter from school and having a few hours of fun i just put her to bed. Today im aware of what a good life i have and you all here on nofap is alot of the reason . Thanks. One day at a time
Thanks for the encouragement brother! And yes Daniel Amen's work is truly insightful. I never knew how much brain dysfunction has to do with so many behaviors. It has been an eye opener for sure. I will look to find more of his books.
That is really incredible and a job well done brother. It provides me with evidence that this 365 day challenge is not impossible. What changes have you seen in your life if I may ask?