I agree with you But being OCD, BIPOLAR PATIENT makes me exaggerating sometimes. Or u can say all the time. What im trying to say to myself is that NoFap isn"t the MAGIC PILL, some success stories talking about being ultimately successful in all aspects of life which didn"t happen to me at all However instead of being overwhelmed & losing faith in NoFap Im more committed Can u imagine bro I never had SPARE TIME, i spent every single moment of it edging & fap trying to get rid of stress..... Every time same mistake. Neither the stress vanish, nor im gettin better. 1st time in my life i can stay calm ALONE Clear minded, peaceful inside however all the stress, drama, tragedy of life Embrace that feeling........ Embrace it....
That"s really emotional & supports my shift of view towards pornstars & prostitutudes Im not aroused by them now*not like before, i still have balls... LOL* i feel pathetic for their lives How hard is the way they earn their living &got stuck in this vicious circle of hell No one ever get deceived that they enjoy that humiliation, fake moaning, aggressive behavior..... Still the Q, why didn"t they quit that shit Why they continue????!!!!!!
As important as it is, consider that recovering from PMO is not the most important thing in life. Through the struggle of recovery and addiction, you are hiddenly growing in so many more important areas - I already listed the mature assets that you yourself mentioned. Added to these will be patience, humility, forgiving oneself and forgiving others, healing the wounds that addictions serve in the first place - all this is already occurring, and perhaps the last vice to stand will be PMO, when it blows over like a cardboard cutout since all that has supported it no longer exists. Time is not wasted as long as you stay faithful in starting again.
You can be sure of that. By the way, Day 4 complete, been at work for straight 11 hours, so checking in now.
09-10-2019 Day 1/90 If there are 1000 steps towards self destruction, don't wait till u make the 999th to stop. You can stop on the 1st. - A wise man
Started Challenges Jan 25, 2019 Relapsed 16/256 Days Longest streaks 67 (2015) and 51 (2019) Current Challenge 8/90 Day 81 weight training (3X/wk) Day 22 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sweets - still feeling no urges so far this time around - hope it lasts for the rest of this challenge - completed my first 7 day challenge now and onto round 2 - your brother in this struggle
Day 7... One week in. This probably is the longest I've been without PMO in a long time. I'm not in a good mood tho... I have things to do but I just don't want to do them . Anyways, I'll continue reading my book ....
20 hard day today. some work stress but worst than that, i found myself suddenly alone, with idle time and horny. my brain was pumping porn imagery a lot. i kept strong, no peaking, but i hesitate for a couple of minutes... got to recheck my motivation because this hesitation is already a warning sign.