Love your words and I am really grateful for it I think the reasons that made me relapsed were stress and boredom. I need to learn how to handle it in a better way, definitely not porn. And one more thing I want to start doing is every day coming back and post something here.
When you cut out PMO your mind will seek out sexual thrills from any sources available to it, like looking at ladies in the street, images in media and online, p-subs, random sexual fantasy thoughts. Any way it can your mind will feed you thoughts that tell you it's ok to fap, that its not a problem for you. Even tame insignificant sexual thoughts will escalate unless you stop them. Your mind will do everything possible to make excuses and trick you. Never ever listen to this voice until you reach your reboot goal. So first, minimise all sources of sexual thoughts 24/7. And second, when sexual thoughts do arise, literally stop what you are doing, acknowledge them, look at them rationally without emotion from all possible angles. Observe and understand them and they will loose power over you. Never ever let them control you. No excuses. Onward and upward brothers. Day 30 / 90 for me today.
Today was my 6th day, done meditation in the morning. Went for satsang programme, so day went amazing. but still 84 days to go, so need to stay focused...
why? have you been depressed before being addicted? most people can´t tell because they have been into pmo for so long. anyways, if you do the reboot, a big chunk of your suffering will vanish. meanwhile if you feeling really low for long time, it´s better to seek a doctor, professional help. all the best bro, i´m with you.
don´t punish yourself brother. punishment engages misery, that will trigger despair feelings, leaving you more likely to keep on relapsing. recognize that an addiction is a deeply engrained behaviour, that is fueled by thoughts, emotions and attitudes. it´s not easy to let go. the important thing is that you get up. every time you fall , you get up. learn with the fall, see how you can prevent it next time. in fact you need relapses in order to gain knowledge about yourself. knowledge is power. go bro, much love.
ok . now be veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy alert if your willpower starts to drop as consequence of the drinks. don´t let your guard down, no peaking, no searching, etc... be very alert.
Day 4/90 completed successfully Stay FOCUSED your start doesn't determine you how you are going to finish. The secret to change is to focus all of the energy not on fighting the old but creating the new of yourself Without strategies execution is aimless or waste Without execution the strategies are waste. So create a strategy as strong as STEEL and as fierce as the mighty EAGLE All the best brothers.
for stress, practice meditation, daily for best results. for boredom, follow the trail of inspiration, thing about several things you want to do right now, and choose the one you want the most. engage in it, then your blood will start pumping and you´ll feel inspired to do other things.