Last night was my first night's sleep without sleeping pills. I went to bed at 8:30 PM feeling exhausted, and I woke up at least once (12:30 AM), but I re-awoke this morning at 5 AM feeling alert and refreshed. Lots of vivid dreams, which is a good sign. A sign of recovery. Spoke to my younger sister last night for the first time in 6 years. Slowly, I feel like I'm starting to get family back in my life. I've now spoken to both of my sisters recently, both for the first time in nearly 6 years. I skipped the gym yesterday so I will train at the gym this evening. It's Friday, and I'm tired, and I just want to end the workweek and go straight home, drink some beers, have a few shots, and flirt with a beautiful woman or two via the telephone. But this is a day to prove to myself that I am a Spartan. So booze and women will have to wait. I'm going to train hard this evening. Weights and cardio. Lots of sweat. No excuses. No matter how tired or deflated I may feel after work today, I'm sticking to my training. I've been training hard and eating very clean lately, and the results are showing, but I want to keep raising the bar, keep pushing myself. I am reminded that Spartans are willing to do the things that others are not, so today I will prove to myself that I am a Spartan. Have a great day my Spartan brothers!
Really a wonderful story , thank you for sharing it with us . Here is part 2 . This one is more interesting .
day 36 i found that doing nofap while leaving other bad habit can make a huge different on benefit and the streak , such as leaving sugar food, social media, mobile phone etc idk if it relatable but its like we are fighting with other enemies and somehow forgot that i fight with PMO too. for me, im so focused that i want to at least lessen my mobile phone usage, turn out i forgot that the real reason i do that because i dont want to relapse......
Check in day 30. I am very thankful for this community. With your guys' help I have completed 30 days no pmo. In over 15+ years of my life I have never done this. This is only the beginning to a new start. The battle has just begun. Yesterday I went on a date. It went well, but I don't think we are very compatible. Instead of racking my brain for things to say, topics and questions came more easily. I was able to look her directly in the eyes and smile. There were still moments of anxiety, but I could see a noticeable difference.
Hello guys, checking in , day 19. These challenge as really been of great help to me, it's help my mind, my body. Now I have been more active than ever outside the PMO world. I'm so glad I started this task and I'm so much glad that I will be completing this task. Last night I flirted with a lady and had a nice sex after which I hadn't done in a long time cause I have been so much focused on PMO. It's only been 19 days but I have seen a lot of difference in myself and I'm so glad about the huge difference in my life by the time I get to hundred days. I won't give up on this journey and I urge you all not to. Let's keep it up
I hear you my friend. Sometimes I think I've become more prone to being addicted to other things since I stopped PMO. It's a constant battle for me, and I am reminded that it's important for me to understand WHY I'm addicted to these things to begin with, i.e. what are my underlying/core issues??
Day (1)61 checking Late checking Had a really busy day with a lot of trains in there Still found time to check and to work on myself. The goal is postponed but I am here fighting as always.