Thank you all for the support. It really helps seeing the likes when I check in. I feel, now that I've quit smoking pot as well, how connected different addictions are. I remember hearing that to fight addiction you should fight 1 thing at a time, but for me quiting both addictions really makes it easier. I just don't get in "the zone" to at out. Also, I think that using is a sort of psychological bandaid. We feel pain so we want to feel good again, even though the thing that makes us feel good creates the groundwork for our pain. Which needs to be healed by said drug and so the loop goes on. I have been on this forum for about 2 years. Working on this, trying to reach 90 days. Some weeks I lose it, some weeks I'm on it. My highest streak was about 30 days. On average, my streaks last about a week/10 days. This is a huge improvement over doing PMO daily. But I am still hooked. This made me reach out a clinic for rehab. Best time to do so now, during corona. No distractions. I have my intake next week. I feel very relaxed for having made this choice. Meanwhile I'll check in here regularly, building towards 90 days. Thank you. And if you're struggling remember; we can rationalize as much as we want, whatch every youtubevideo on productivity, getting clean, making something of our lives, but in the end, the only thing that matters is the manifestation of your being into the world. That means acting. DOING something. And I believe that deep down in our hearts, we know. You know what you should be doing. But being still and listening takes courage. cheers Day 5/90
Yes, it's a good idea to remind yourself often of the progress you've made already. Not as an excuse to let yourself slack and not to get arrogant, but as a proof of what you're capable of and as an incentive to do even better.
Great words! And how awesome is it that you're taking your recovery so serious that you're visiting a rehab clinic? You are an inspiration to us!
Day 19 -- Succesfully completed! I had the urge to have a quick peek yesterday. It was hard to resist,so I decided to switch to my Bible App and water just to get my mind off the suggestion to fap! I'm almost 3 weeks in and this has been the furthest NoFap period for me. I'm truly proud of myself. It's becoming more apparent each day that all it takes it's me entertaining my thoughts before anything else. It doesn't feel good to rather think of how to tackle your assignment when thinking of porn is soo enticing - the upside is, I feel so much lighter. I'm without guilt and now I can use my wifi for productive activities. ❤️.
Hey Bro, I've been thinking a lot about this very thing! I got a TON out of watching the Man of Action series by Universal Man on Youtube. I highly recommend this resource to help you understand your dopamine issues and come up with an effective strategy. At least watch the first 2 videos! Hope this helps!
23/90 no PM 0/21 no caffeine 0/21 waking up at 6:30, take a walk, cold shower I broke down today and had a coffee. It came about because I had a very low energy week and let a bunch of work pile up. Now I'm basically out of time and I have a mountain of things to get done today. It's not the healthiest strategy but it's what's happening today. Fortunately, I haven't looked at any porn, but I'll need to be careful today (and probably tomorrow). This also goes against my long-term goal, which is the dopamine detox. I've learned two things here, 1) Don't let work pile up. I was a bit TOO lax in letting myself rest and put too many things off "until tomorrow." 2) I need to establish a more firm morning routine for waking up. To this end, I'm adding a 21-day challenge for myself of no caffeine. I've already weaned myself down (and I went 3 whole days with zero caffeine) so I should be able to do this. In additional to no caffeine, I'm committing to waking up at 6:30 each morning to take a long walk outside followed by a nice, cold shower. This may be tough for the first 3 days or so but I believe this will give my body a significant boost in energy. Have a great day everyone!