I need some serious help right now. I am really hoping its HOCD that I have got because i hope to god i am not gay. I woke up this morning thinking i was extremely gay and i loved men, never happened like this before. Usually these thoughts are disgusting but it feels as if I want it and like it. I want it to go because I’m convinced I like men even though a man has never made me hard before like a girl does. I never got hard with gay porn or naked guy or anything. It only seems as if I might be attracted to their face. For example I love the show DR WHO but I keep thinking I am attracted to the actors when it deep down disgusts me. Can this happen. Is it false attraction. I hope this is seriously HOCD and not me being gay. When i was younger i always liked girls, searched things on the computer like “dove Cameron naked” etc. Never had an interest in guys. The thing that’s made it worse is my mum thought i would have been gay even though i have a girlfriend. I have quit porn and masturbation.
Mate didn't you post yesterday that you had been watching P again to 'check'? If so...the reason you feel like this is self explanatory..
Okay this is classic anxiety. I experienced hocd but ive realised that the "attraction" you feel to their faces is really just an anxiety fixation. You notice them because your body is basically putting all its energy into identifying something that you fear and it gives it a fixation effect. you are confusing attraction with anxiety. Ask yourself what you truely find attractive about a guys face and youll realise that you cant actually say anything.
Hi everyone, I've been seeing a lot of people suffering with HOCD, and I know how you all feel. I relapsed 4 times today because I somehow believe that I'll become gay if I don't. I've never watched gay porn but I'm scared that I can become gay, that I'll be struck and suddenly wake up one day gay. I'm just so scared to do anything anymore guys. It's just to hard, Social Anxiety kills me. And that all terrifies me, I hate it so much. And I don't know how to get rid of it, I'm getting massive OCD. Do you guys have any articles? Any research or anything that can help in helping lower or eradicate the HOCD. Thanks.
Download porn blockers, take a cold shower, stop masturbating and if you do punish yourself (no phone or computer etc.) just avoid porn and should settle in three weeks or so