Day 6 Quite a depressing day so far. Woke up feeling like life sucks and then got the news my gf has been admitted to hospital complaining of chest pains. The only good thing about this day up until now is that I don't have any urges.
Thank you. One of the main reasons why I am still here is that I had a lot of support. Without the support of my wife and this forum I am quite sure that I'd still be fapping daily etc. I am on nofap since the end of 2017 and honestly believed in the beginning that I'll beat the 365 day challenge at the first attempt. Many relapses have taught me to swallow my pride, to stop making unrealistic promises, but also to be kinder to myself and get out of the usless blame cycling I have been stuck in for so long. I am trying to improve, and often I am not even trying to improve, but eventually I will try to improve myself again that much has to be good enough for now. Let's see how much longer I will have to stay on this forum, I don't feel anywhere near recovery to be honest.