Day 108 I find myself thinking about P more often lately, so I decided to post more regularly. My next milestone is 122 days/ 1/3 of a year.
Day 0 Relapsed after struggling with my urges for the last few weeks. I don't feel too bad though. I tried watching P but it just felt boring and fake to me. M still felt good though. Can't imagine myself going back to spending hours every day to search for P. I can say that staying clean for 108 days definitely brought a lot of positive changes. I will go back to the 90 day challenge.
XIII. I dreamt relapsing for the second night in a row. I guess either I'm terrified of the idea either my subconscious craves it a lot. This is proper chaser-effect.
Day 30 checking in. I got a couple drops of semen leakage after the urine. This was the third time in the past 120 PMO free days. Not bad! Keep going.