Checking for day 1 Did a lot since the relapse. Since that moment. My life is different. I applied for a master, I enrolled in the english test, I've been less anxious in a meeting. In less than 24 hours. Life can be amazing sometimes.
Day 2, settled the disput with my girlfriend. Also talked to her about my "man crisis". In myself I noticed a negative belief, which hold me back from being my best version. Everytime I saw my girlfriend I felt like I had to show her by having sex with her how mannly Iám. That´s wierd. It´s a big epiphany for me to know she is totally okay with having not sex, allthough her libido is high. Iám so happy right now. From experience I know that the reboot will cause major improvements and lasting change in the relationship and my life. Sure, we will have sex, but it´s going to be different now after we looked at sex for simply what it is, just sex.
Day 1. PMO is disgusting and filthy. I’ve been on many long term streaks and feel much better when on them. Let’s go
A week of emotions got the best of me. Relapsed last night. No P involved, which is something I can take away as positive. Gaining strength in my discipline.
day 7 to be honest i dont know what to write here,,, its a total mess of wasting time tho its 9 AM in here and im just realize that another day has been wasted by binging to youtube,