Alright, y'all. I messed up. I fell to temptation this morning. I logged into Nofap like 3 separate times, just trying to find motivation to fight the urge, but ultimately gave in. Super pissed about it, because I felt I was making real progress. Anyway, not giving up. I desperately want to make it 90 days. Really, I want to never touch the stuff again, for the sake of my health and relationship. It's depressing knowing that no matter how much resolve I have in this moment, or how much I hate falling to temptation, there will come a time in the near future where I forget about all that and just want to jerk off. I want to make it to 90 days, because I want to get past the phase where urges are overwhelming like that. This thread helped me get farther in that endeavor than I have in a long time, so I'm going to keep coming back here for support. Day 0/90.
Many positives over the last week. 1. Successfully completed the 3rd week which I believed would be the toughest. 2. Reached a state where I can stay without PMO even when I am alone. 3. I feel way more happy and comfortable with my own self now. Concerns 1. I still fantasize. Eg: A girl sits next to me while working. Many times during the day I get thoughts about her. 2. Fantasising impacts my efficiency at work. 3. Fear and anxiety still exists when I am in front of any girl but not so much when I am with my male friends. Any suggestions on how to overcome the concerns are welcome.
realised that I finished my first day Anyway... the first days were always easy. Hard work starts after approximately 12 days. hmmm
I relapsed. I mentioned roughly after 10 days I need/want to have sex. This time I will go for 1 month, let's go
day 17 here , so yeah broke my past rule and started studying in night ,, not waking up in morning these day due to this , i found that i am more productive in night and i also have some peer with them i can study in night , we stay in contack in night through telegram and we all discusses our doubts and other stuffs related to study and other stuffs also , so yeah really happy and will make this month clean and also i am moving towards my highest streak of 21 fays and i will not repeat my past mistakes this time..
Day 13/90 Had a 40% morning wood erection, haven't had them for years.. Guys we can't go back and fix the past but we can still save our future
Day 35 Today I found out that my little brother is watching porn, Preparing myself to show him where that could end. Hope everything goes well and he actually stops watching porn. Am just praying that he listens.