Check-in. A good start to the day with a 21km cycle ride. Had a good meditation session. Looking forward to the day
Almost relapsed last night, but I just turned off my mobile phone and went to bed. Also this morning the urges rises again, and I started searching but then I asked myself "Is it worth it?". I found myself getting calmer and closed everything. Went on to the panic key, and started reading some threads on nofap, and remembered how I am still clean from the beginning of this year. I was a porn addict since I was 14 years till now which is like 14 years of addiction. I know the road to recovery will be tough, and there will be some slips. But I believe, what not kills us, makes us stronger. Some will call what I saw a relapse, but I find it a win, to be almost 80% inside, and be able to pull myself out, that's a win for me. I want to fight back, and I am here to see how everyone is fighting, and to learn from mistakes. This was one of the longest posts I ever wrote here. I felt I needed to talk and say what happened to me. I will keep on fighting, and I hope everyone is having a better start of the day. Checking in day 011/500
Day 11 complete! One more week until I go back to college and ugh, I do not feel ready to go back to that sleep schedule. I know I'll be keeping myself busy, though, which means even fewer opportunities for PMO to creep back into my routine!
Hey brother you've done really well ! but you can improve if you could add study of rebooting process and healthy-moderate nutrition to your list!
Brother urges bother you into searches only because you didn't learn by heart of what they and what harm they do inflict if you but allow them to. Because of that I recommend you to increase the amount of your rebooting studies until you are firmly set in the right knowledge.
This challenge is 500 days long so you are at the beginning of it yet and your goal of 90 days Just allowed you to experience power of the grey wizard which is nothing compared to the powers of the white wizard, by quiting challenge today you throw yourself into wanderings between orc and your current point for a long while ,without mentioning you consciously want to get back to MOing and keep damaging your health.!??Whats wrong with you?
Day 12 I'm starting to feel some urges but I have to be strong. Staying in bed and procrastinating will always lead to relapse. I'll get up, do some work and some exercise, and finish with a cold shower.
Hey , brothers I found a simple way to stay happy for a while. It's to crack a hearty joke in your mind. I was running in the morning and started imagining myself sharing cakes and tea to the homeless people when I said to them -'Be careful it's a Lembas bread and one small bite is able to fill a stomach of a grown man.' After that I couldn't stop smiling and laughing in my mind for another mile or so !
You showed great strength to do this. 99% of people including myself would have fallen but you stopped.
Day 34. I have so my energy and have made so many changes to my life in the last 34 days. Looking forward to see what I can accomplish in the remaining days of my 90 day reset
Day 90 complete I've reached the Black Gate of Mordor. Power and wisdom runs through my veins, I'm a servant of the Secret Fire, Wielder of The Flame of Anor, a Grey Wizard.