Day 59. I have recently learned about PAWS and it seems that I may be experiencing something similar. I have been experiencing waves of anxiety, especially in social settings, over the last couple of days and have had to be more diligent than usual about staying active and not fantasizing. These emotions seem to come at random as overall I am feeling really positive about my life and the direction I am heading. It has been a struggle to deal with these emotions and I hope that with time I will return to a consistent mood.
Actually that's what we are doing by replacing PMO with 'tips' because there is no emptiness in nature - if you don't fill your time by your own choice, your environment and old habits will do it for for you by default and if you persist long enough in exercising you own choice it gonna become a healthy habit or as you refer to it positive addiction,although I thing the world addiction is a bit irrelevant in this combo as it implies harmful deeply entrenched habit. p.s. This I heard long time ago and it makes sense-to develop one of your skills to perfection! This ain't easy by any means though.
Day 115 complete. Spending a lot of the day alone today. My son will be with me but he'll be all over the place playing at the grandparents house. Praying for strength and the awareness to know when my triggers are trying to hit me.
yes brother, be very alert and following a triggers prevention plan very tightly, because now you´re in real danger. Be aware my brother, courage!!
Day 15. Finally a hobbit¡¡ hehe its an small victory in this battle but each victory its an encourage to keep going until the end
yes, emotional coping techniques are very important to keep you stable and grounded. whenever i feel strong emotions i use this technique. this exercise is also very good: on top of that, it´s important that you practice regular techniques like meditation. meditation is super good in developing awareness and emotional stability. give it a try bro
well, i sense an impeding doom here. don´t know why, but it feels by your words that you´re expecting difficulties. and entering hesitation is already a step towards PMO. plan your day bro, make it an easy day. it´s always the best course of action. don´t test yourself, don´t stay in risky situations, because you only have a limited amount of energy and you can´t spend that energy debating against yourself. antecipate my brother, focus.
Check in Fellowship The following brothers have upgraded and reach places in Middle Earth. Congratulations!!! @Themomentum - Uruk-Hai @MyGodandMyAll27 - Hobbit / Hobbiton (you´re in the Hall of Fame now my brother. Make us proud ) @jaberwaki - Bree / Eriador A special salute to our brother @HE^MAN for reaching the pretty number of 200 days free from PMO. Congratulations bro A huge wave of comradeship to our brothers @BrotherHal @CrimsnBlade and @Ciceron which are facing difficulties now. Courage my brothers, the Fellowship is with you!!! Checking out brave Companion . Have a great weekend!!!! easy_peasy. "6.6 Social Night Sessions This is misinformation that seems to make sense, but doesn’t. In order to control your appetite, will you eat at home before leaving to go to a restaurant or party? This is what you’re doing with sessions before social nights, looking tired and not up to your best. The widespread adoption of pick-up techniques has introduced pressure to perform, pick-up and score. Attempting to drown your butterflies with porn and substances will only make the problem worse in the long run. Personally, I like a bit of anxiety to keep me focused and engaged and tiring yourself out mentally and physically with orgasm isn’t going to help. Social night porn is occasioned by two or more of our usual reasons for pleasure/prop seeking, social functions at their core being both stressful and relaxing. This might appear to be a contradiction but any form of socialisation can be stressful – even with friends – wanting to be yourself and completely relaxed. There’s many occasions that have multiple factors present at any one time, take driving as an example, since after all, your life is at stake. Stressful, with concentration required for sustained periods of time. You need not be aware of these factors, your subconscious already receiving the message. By the same token, when finding yourself stuck in traffic jams or bored on long highway drives, the promise of a session upon reaching home occupies your mind. Another good example is going on a first date, your mind throwing out questions about the person you’re about to meet. Then if your enthusiasm starts to fade upon meeting the person in the flesh you’ll start to feel too relaxed, then guilty for feeling this way. The tug of war has started, “I want sex or get me out of here ASAP”, priming you for post date porn. Even if the date went well and hours later you’re back at their place, no matter which way it goes you won’t be satisfied if your only goal is seeking orgasm. At other times you drive home alone, your only thought being your online harem instead of congratulating yourself for your efforts. You can bet that someone in this position will have a session upon reaching home, and it’s often after nights like these – waking to feel uneasy emptiness – are the ones we’ll miss the most when we contemplate stopping porn. We think that life will never be quite as enjoyable again. In fact, it’s the same principle at work: the sessions simply provide relief from the withdrawal pangs, at some times having greater needs than others, greasing the water slide for the next cue. Make this clear - it’s not internet porn and harem dwellers that are special, it’s the occasion. Once the need for porn is removed, such occasions will become more enjoyable and stressful situations less stressful."
Day 88! My keyboard's battery is low yet I won't let that stop me from doing an update. In the past 2 days I've removed most of the instagram girls I was following, since I plan on using Instagram for an older project I put on hold, probably due to the fact that I started throwing my energy into a relationship at that time and wasted the remaining energy on working and smoking. Smoking, which will represent the next step in my journey. Now, unfollowing all the wenches was pretty easy with the feature that allow an user to unfollow related accounts... But I noticed a small hesitance inside! I tried to watch the thoughts materializing inside my head (thanks to meditation practice this whole time) as it was going on. "I won't be able to see hot girls anymore!" and "What if they post a really hot picture and I've done my reboot?" and other simp thoughts life that. But it was amazing how simple it was to unfollow them as I meditated to myself "How beautiful would the timeline look, knowing that I will only see things that are in my interest, that my intellectual capacity won't be highjacked or drained the aggressive posting of girl pics by dudes that have no other means of producing money. I imagine this as the following scenario: Let's say You visit a city... You have your friends there, you have events and people doing joking or doing a multitude of things... And as you are walking through the city, admiring the views and what's going on... until you reach a part of the town where you start seeing barely naked women and the further you go into that direction more and more of these women appear... By this time, you realize that you are in the infamous part of the town where money is everything and everyone can be bought... The part of town where you live from one day to another, the place where everything seems fun but only for a day... for if you see that happening every day you would be inclined to believe that those people are on the edge of insanity. So I asked myself this question... "What do you want to see? What connections do you want to make?". Having had my fair share of moving and explorations it was an easy answer... But for some of you, who hadn't had any tampering with the dark/hidden and hidden parts of towns/groups... I can tell you that no futures are created there only constant debt (and the debt is not just monetary, but internal also). Anyway! I must remember to buy batteries tomorrow for today I'm keeping it chill before the great day of tomorrow in which opportunity lies! Have a great night!