Sissy fantasy acted out. Gone this far can be reversed?

We had a similar post of a guy few weeks back. He too had acted out but solely due to the porn addiction not because he was a sissy or anything.
And Sir , do not try to be sissy because trust me YOU ARE NOT . No man is and definitely not you because you don't even feel like one yourselves.
Let me narrate something. I was reading a book about the porn industry and it's seepage into mainstream. There was a quote from a porn fan and he says " when I first watched cruelty porn I was disgusted, and hated the porn actors for the physical harm they did in those porn movies to the porn actresses. Although there were some parts here and there that where arousing but I was disgusting"
He goes on saying " but I watched the scene again for the unusual arousal it gave though it was once, and now I am a hardcore cruelty porn lover from a hardcore hater"
You see what is happening here sir. This person's arousal was absolutely a normal reaction of his body upon seeing naked people and he thought of it the other way and gave way to the filth to enter his mind. This man was perhaps never a misogynist but porn made him one.

 

um were you crossdressing even before you learnt about p? how do you feel after crossdressing? did you ever feel that you might be female (before you were introduced to world of P)

 

best thing to do would be a hard mode reset to understand if you are crossdressing out of pmo escalation or if you just like it, if its the latter your best bet is a psychologist and then if you want to crossdress with your partner its really no one's business.

 

I mean did you feel guilty after cross-dressing (the time when you never knew what MO or P was)?
Do you only feel aroused when you cross dress or do you feel comfortable (meaning that you were meant to wear something like that)
You don't have any dysphoria right? (Feeling hatred for being in a man's body)

Anyways don't stress on this, those fantasies about being watched by men were something which came after you were introduced to world of P. So yeah just do hard mode Nofap as of now, so that you can get rid of these unwanted fantasies which are induced by PMO and later with a clear mindset take further steps in your life. I mean if you are comfortable being in a man's body, I'm sure you can be ok with not cross-dressing. Like you mentioned there are few girls who like men who crossdress, but they like to dominate such men and use them like slaves and even introduce you to other unwanted fetishes so as to keep you in check while spending all your money, it's not a good experience, a lot of people have regretted that life.

So I would suggest you to do hard mode Nofap and then maybe after an year test yourself if you can MO without any cross-dressing fantasies then I'm sure you can marry a normal girl and live a normal life.

 

First off, please take a few deep breaths and relax a little bit. You are not an autoghynpheal or whatcha call it. You’re a male who just got into the cocaine genre of P. You need to do a hardmode reboot, perhaps even 2 years of it. I used to be into the male to female P comics and other garbage. I am almost 4 years clean and no longer have the fetish. I actually found an old bookmark on one of my phones and it had the sites of erotica I used to read and comics. I read a bit and realized how stupid I was. If I can do it, you can do it. Don’t give up dude!

 

That's cool, anyways whether you have cross-dressing fetish or it isn't much of an issue. But when you have P in your life the fetish keeps on multiplying. I feel like you did a wrong diagnosis of your problem, what you have isn't Autogenophilia. What you seem to have must be this one: https://www.merckmanuals.com/profes...araphilias/transvestic-disorder?redirectid=39

https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/conditions/transvestic-disorder

This paraphilia can be cured, so stay strong

 

About 2 years, maybe 1.5 years. Nofap becomes a lifestyle. I look back at when I used to watch dumb crossdressing crap and realized how stupid it was. Your natural masculinity will increase tenfold with nofap.

 

I agree with Roady here. Crossdressing, the associated porn and the fantasies are a psychological mechanism to protect you from pain. Try to find out what kind of emotions you try to bury. It has probably something to do with a very negative self image. Also I would argue : Don't be ashamed of these desires. Shame and guilt just feeds them and makes them bigger. Once you start to truly love and respect yourself the desires will still be there but they will be so small that it is easy to do differently.

 

Probably yes, you can't reverse what you've done.

Your story could be usefull to someone who's in your position right now, thanks for sharing.

 

Sounds like you know what you should do. Coincidentally enough, when I posted on this thread, I saw an obvious cross dresser at a shopping plaza I was at. I almost threw up my smoothie drink because of how nasty it looks for me now after rebooting. A guy can never really be a woman. Enjoy your manhood.

 

Well there is difference between people who have gender dysphoria and people who cross-dress for sexual pleasure. Please don't confuse with both of them. Ofcourse a guy can never be a woman no matter how many surgeries he undergoes, but still if it cures their gender dysphoria then let them do what they are comfortable with, we mustn't judge them.

 

I read somewhere that true trans people dress up simply because it "feels right" to them, i.e. it's just "who they are". This is opposed to someone with a fetish doing it purely for self-arousal. I think with enough porn that line can get blurred and cause all kinds of confusion. Without the porn, clarity will return and the self-questioning will subside.