Greetings Fellowship! I would like to join this challange.I have been a disgusting orc for a long time now...I want to change that!I realy do,but i am struggling to get out of the cave.I WILL keep trying tho!Again and again till i succeed.Just after a relapse soo.. Day 0
1 day. Have not posted in a couple days. Prayer Rosary last night. Most of my 7 sorrows chapter today. Abstinence. No fasting on Sundays. Back on it today. Rest. Round of golf the night before. Read for an hour last night. Haven’t slept real good the last couple nights. Been having crazy dreams too. Exercise Golfing the other night. Nutrition Fairly healthy. Take it easy on Sundays. Time Being patient with myself. One day at a time. last couple of falls have been different. Seeing signs my brain is healing with the intermittent fasting and nutritious food I have been eating.
sure bro. anytime you reach a rank, change your status, don´t wait for me . Yeah, i know that feeling of being a Hobbit, great feeling indeed . Congratulations!!!
Congratulations brother . Even though you slipped, you have fallen forward, that´s what matters. Learn and improve my brother, let´s go!!
Checking in Fellowship. Bad day today as i have been suffering from brain fog all day. I think this is mostly due to several nights of insomnia which i think is not a withdrawal symptom anymore, i think is connected to my coffee intake. so i will cut coffee all together and switch in the morning with other natural boosters. i´m gonna do wim hof after my morning meditation, then add some ginger and cinnamon to my breakfast. let´s see how it goes Fellowship, the counters are still not showing so please type which day you´re in, otherwise i can´t follow through. Let´s welcome our new member @ReturntoLife and our returned brother @Gunna44 Brother @crazyhorse11 is enjoying his day for today he´s a Hobbit . Congratulations brother, good journey!!! @Prophet Moonstruck has entered the Misty Mountains. Checking out my brothers and sisters. Have a good day
I have another day M-free, and P-sub-free. That's the number of days my counter indicates. Porn-free 200 days!
Day 6 Building this day by day. I am focused on making the right choices. Soon I will be worthy of rejoining the Fellowship. Stay strong brothers!
Another day and-Meditation in the morning and quite exhausting run after that which forced me to walk in meditative steps .
I messed up. But there is no pity for a fool. This time I'm doing all the way. This will be my top priority. Addiction makes my physically and mentally ill and health should be number one. No matter what, I need to put myself first this time. And by 'all the way' I mean semen retention no edging no nothing. Keeping energy for myself and put it into work etic. Acctualy doing it otherwise. Replace this bad habits with healthy ones. I have to be disciplined.
So I MO'd about half an hour ago, but the great part was that it was without P, P-subs, or fantasy. It was based solely on sensation. While I still have to reset per LOTR challenge rules, it gave me hope that I can have a sexual life that is not based around porn or fantasy. It can be based on the moment not of something fake. I also realized today that I do not want to do certain types of sex acts because porn has ruined it for me. Porn has made me uncomfortable with receiving oral and hand jobs because it reminds me of the kind of porn I find online. Plus porn is a lot more aggressive that reality, and I find that even in my fantasies, I am looking at porn/in a porno and I absolutely hate that. So while I am still on day 0, the MO session was such a breakthrough because it made me realize that I could beat this addiction. Best, Mathman1994