The Lord of the Rings Challenge

Check in for the day 5 without PMO. I feel lighter and sleep better at night

 

Greetings Fellowship!
I would like to join this challange.I have been a disgusting orc for a long time now...I want to change that!I realy do,but i am struggling to get out of the cave.I WILL keep trying tho!Again and again till i succeed.Just after a relapse soo..
Day 0

 

1 day. Have not posted in a couple days.
Prayer
Rosary last night. Most of my 7 sorrows chapter today.
Abstinence.
No fasting on Sundays. Back on it today.
Rest.
Round of golf the night before. Read for an hour last night. Haven’t slept real good the last couple nights. Been having crazy dreams too.
Exercise
Golfing the other night.
Nutrition
Fairly healthy. Take it easy on Sundays.
Time
Being patient with myself. One day at a time.

last couple of falls have been different. Seeing signs my brain is healing with the intermittent fasting and nutritious food I have been eating.

 

Welcome to the fellowship , let's go!.

 

Checking in. Be well everyone

 

Day 16

 

I have another day M-free, and P-sub-free. That's the number of days my counter indicates.

Porn-free 200 days!

 

Day 46 trod on

 

Day 6

Building this day by day. I am focused on making the right choices.

Soon I will be worthy of rejoining the Fellowship.

Stay strong brothers!

 

Another day and-Meditation in the morning and quite exhausting run after that which forced me to walk in meditative steps .

 

I messed up. But there is no pity for a fool.
This time I'm doing all the way. This will be my top priority.
Addiction makes my physically and mentally ill and health should be number one. No matter what, I need to put myself first this time. And by 'all the way' I mean semen retention no edging no nothing. Keeping energy for myself and put it into work etic. Acctualy doing it otherwise. Replace this bad habits with healthy ones. I have to be disciplined.

 

Day 352

 

So I MO'd about half an hour ago, but the great part was that it was without P, P-subs, or fantasy. It was based solely on sensation. While I still have to reset per LOTR challenge rules, it gave me hope that I can have a sexual life that is not based around porn or fantasy. It can be based on the moment not of something fake. I also realized today that I do not want to do certain types of sex acts because porn has ruined it for me. Porn has made me uncomfortable with receiving oral and hand jobs because it reminds me of the kind of porn I find online. Plus porn is a lot more aggressive that reality, and I find that even in my fantasies, I am looking at porn/in a porno and I absolutely hate that. So while I am still on day 0, the MO session was such a breakthrough because it made me realize that I could beat this addiction.

Best,
Mathman1994

 

day 66

 

Tired, and avoiding the internet lol! "Be on your guard!"

 

Checking in on Day 170.

 

314 days dwarf king
389 days no PMO, semen retention