My Story: 545 Days No-PMO, Hard Mode (1 Year and 185 Days and Counting)

lol thanks bro sounds like you are so much in LOVE with sex!

 

fair enough man I was mostly joking - your view and perspective is valid, and it is a way of being it may not be the best way for every one.

 

I just had another silence day and I feel super clear.

I am now seeing the events of the last week, as a blessing and a slip from the path that I am on.

I was lead to a quote by Mahatma Gandhi

"The Path"

I know the path. It is straight and narrow.
It is like the raisers edge.
I rejoice walking on it. I weep when I slip.
God word is "he who strives never perishes"
I have implicit faith in that promise.
Though there for my weakness I fail a thousand times.
I shall not loose faith."

So I am deeply grateful that I didn't actually release my seeds and have an orgasm.

I am grateful to be inspired again, to walk the path of purity and to renounce porn, masterbation and orgasm.

I will allow myself to touch my body if i feel it will help me move the energy to higher centers, but avoiding selfish desires and lustful intentions.

key insight:

I will abstain from sexual relationship to another women, unless i have seen her in Truth and there is a soul connection - which will come through relating to her through 6-12 months of getting to connect and go deep.

not because sex is wrong or bad, I fully agree sex is a healthy part of being a human, however it depends on what is ones Goal of life.

If one sees the goal of life as living a good and happy human experience, then yes sex is a normal part of it.

But once one sees the suffering of life of a normal human, one will seek deep in the soul for something other than a good human life. but a Mystical life of realization of Divinity.

In this recognition, Sex, money, wealth and health are all part of the passing dream.

The Bliss and the love and the inner joy is found in something unspeakable, which is impossible for a human being to comprehend, until they are initiated to it.

I have been touched by this even to a tiny measure, and never again can i go back to the old life, of good human hood.

 

From The Shvetashvatara Upanishads (Sacred ancient texts)

"Great is the glory of the lord of life. Infinite, omnipresent, all-knowing.
He is known by the wise who meditate and conserver their vital energy. "

 

Thank you! Where did that come from?

I would have to agree to that.

The only correction / point i like to make, is making something in to 'animal' or bad, is creating aversion towards it, and by doing so we secretly strengthen it.

In other words when we demonize something, we actually strengthen it.

Like if we say alcohol is evil and bad, we are now polarizing ourselves and will be more tempted to drink.

If we say sex is bad, animalistic and wrong, we are now secretly craving it and even if we avoid it we feel a secret sense of pride (which comes before the fall) as we think we are some how better/ higher than others.

However, it is valid to feel in to the love for truth, for self control, for solberity.

We can love being sober, free from alcohol, and move towards health, without taking a moralistic perspective onit.

We can love transmutation of our sexual essence, and discover our sexless atman within and feel its bliss and share it with all, without walking around and thinking how animalistic sex is and how much above it we are.

Like my teacher Dr David R Hawkin says, we can love venellia without hating chocolate.

I feel this is a powerful teaching, to focus on what we resonate with, and avoid the trap of self righteousness and aversion towards its opposite because it keeps us stuck.

 

Yes bro, I find that when we are more self controlled and connected, we naturally spend on budget, we are aware of more things which includes finances, and we feel we always have enough and even more than enough. It is also the fact that I learned how to budget my money properly and not be so re-active. We created a course on it and it is freely available if you like to msg me and ill send it to you.

 

Great share bro thank you, yes this is actually what I am now choosing, I feel the depth and the commitment is the right way for me moving forward.

 

I like your direct feedback, thank you The useless details you mean at the start of the post or which post? I like to clean it up let me know