I’ve done it!!! Yesterday was hell but I’ve done it. I’m a Hobbit!! I’ve never been able to stay clean for this long. I’m scared as fuck from failing now. yesterday I was hangover and all I did all day long was just not watching porn, and it was shit. But it worked! My first post here was in December of 2020. It took me more then six month to make it two weeks. I’m so happy right now. in all my life, this is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. But I’ve done it! I truly did not believe I could do it. Thank you so much for everyone here for all of your help and support, and especially thank you to @Slider8 that really pushed me to be better.
37 days. Push-ups in the morning. Some small urges in the afternoon while feeling bored with work. In the evening I caught myself fishing a bit, or rather mindlessly browsing, until I saw a triggering meme (which I already suspected would be on the particular page I was broswing). I became aware of what I was doing and shut down the page half a sec after I noticed the provocative image. Good job steering away from the danger, I didn't even feel any dopamine rush. However, I really must keep focus when browsing the internet, fishing is not acceptable. Running + push-ups later in the evening.
Oh no, sorry to hear that, you were on a good streak. Can you extract any advice from your slip, to give to others, in order for us to avoid the same thing happening? I completely understand if you don't feel like it. Keep it up!
Yes , fishing is really bad ,i lose my last streak for that action , i thought that is not going to affect me anymore....i was so wrong. Awesome , keep forward no mercy with the pmo.
Sorry Fellowship, slipped again yesterday i took the day off, but didn´t plan it, so boredom quickly started creeping in, and i collapse. i should have seen it coming, but oh well... I´m gonna take a break from the challenge for a while, reflect and revise my strategy. See you soon Stay strong my friends.
Hope to see you back soon. You've made a positive difference here. I made it to a week... and soon I shall regain a portion of my manhood (as an Uruk, not talking about my dick)
Yeah, I am so ashamed but not giving up. Well I think I lowered my guard too much. When the streak is short all the positive effects come very quickly (first 15-30 days) so I was much more motivated to fight and I was much more careful since it was hard. After about 45-65 days the urges become weak and rare so of course it was much easier but also just boring, I had the feeling that nothing changes and lost some motivation. Well, then there came a day (yesterday) when everything went to hell, you know, one when you'd rather not wake up in the morning, everything was wrong, everything screwed up... I thought "why not? I don't care so much anymore" and I relapsed (and I guess I screwed up the last thing that was ok). It is probably nothing new, but maybe it will help someone (maybe even future me). Now I think it's important to overcome the chaser effect to not lose all the benefits. Anyway do not be like me, do not forget why you are doing this, stay strong and never give up. Good luck!