Day 16 So far accomplished today: cold shower, workout, prayer, meditation. My sleep needs to get better. Still a little brain fogged. Yesterday I was checking out a chick and for some reason it triggered a porn memory, though luckily I was able to re-direct my mind somewhat quickly. Gotta be more focused and less spacey.
35 days – You enter the cold Misty Mountains, the Hithaeglir. I feel like where I am in the journey is fitting. Feel like I really am climbing a mountain in reshaping my life, and I've been a bit distracted with self doubt. I really need to create more cashflow and I was thinking some kind of online income would be good. I used to like writing, so I thought maybe a blog or website would be good. I don't really know what it'd be about though and have a hard time picturing myself being successful.
Best advice for dating and relationships Current streak: 484 days no PMO, semen retention Be sex independent that is it. If you can live without sex, masturbation, porn. Even without sex while having sex with a girlfriend, meaning that if all of the sudden she breaks up with you or she simply doesn’t want to have sex any long you remain unshakable, calm. Happy in pleasure, happy in pain Woman’s mind is so complex, one needs to have a lot of experience to deal with them the right way but if you are able to live the same as if you were having or not having sex then I’m almost certain you can handle the situation the right way no matter your level of experience. Your mind will be crystal clear to see the situation the right way without lust clouding your thinking. It’s not an easy task it is easier said than done. But try to the best of your abilities to be a master of your domains. Conclusion: master your sexual energy and you will handle dating and your interactions with women in a more pleasant and wise manner.
That's awesome, when my central nervous system is in a good place, I will attempt this ice bath too. Did it elevate your mood? Glad you stuck through today and kept on track, well done!
Checking in Fellowship friends! Day 290 free of porn, day 218 free of MO. Today was a bit of a challenge, the poor quality sleep affected me. There is a point of interest though, the negative symptoms that reoccur on occasion, are so much less potent than they were just about 2 months ago. On the flip side, it also makes me impatient to be completely through this. I constantly need to remind myself that I need to ignore that impatience, that I must remain present and resolute to my path. Withdrawal symptoms have been melting away slowly but surely and they will keep doing so..while I remain true to the path. Stay strong my friends!
Kiss on the cheek I went to the gym and did some fast weight training then some abs and yoga with the girl I cold approached two days ago. She told me she is going to have an easier job schedule since next week, so I’ll probably ask her out next week. My plan is to keep the interaction in the less sexualized manner, I’m only going to approach physically if she wants to or her body language tells me to do it. I’ll have to keep analyzing the situation and improvise because everything can change depending on the girl’s mood. At the end of the training, in which we touched each other quite a bit, she approached to me and gave me a kiss on the cheek our lips were pretty close, she was also very relaxed when she did it. It was a good sign. I’m also going to stop calling girls by beautiful names like baby, honey… Girls always have the impression you just want to have sex with them so, calling her names even do is sweet it can sexualize the dialogue. I always use this type of love adjectives since day one I meet a girl, but I’m going to stop doing it unless she talks to me the same way.
Day 2 complete! Went running again today. There are a ton of hills where I'm living now, which makes it more difficult compared to the terrain where I first began running. I'm trying out a new route which is only about 3 miles but despite running it three times now I still can't quite make it all the way. For a guy who used to do 8 miles pretty consistently this is surprising and frustrating, but hey, I'm learning and adapting. Man, this really is a good metaphor for PMO addiction.
87 days. Long day of work yesterday, not much time for anything else. Looking forward to the weekend and hope I can relax a little bit.
How typical it is that almost as soon as I reach urukdom again, I let a moment of weakness creep in and mess up my streak again. What's really worrying me is that my tactic of reassuring myself to address and resolve those inner causes has been a lot weaker since that stupid porn relapse a couple of weeks ago. Back to Minas Morgul