Day 4 Another good day! I've been so busy with work today I actually didn't get a chance to watch an episode of Squid Game like I said I would, but I'm not gonna abuse this chance by watching 2 episodes tomorrow to "compensate". Instead, this just means now I can use this strategy to reach a week instead of 6 days now, since I missed a day! I'm also gonna be much busier with work than usual this week which I see as a positive because it's just more stuff to keep my busy and away from PMO. I didn't have any urges today although I came across a few pretty strong triggers, luckily I just ignored them and keep doing whatever I was doing at that time but they have been popping back up in my mind every now and then so I need to be careful and mindful of those.
Day 7 complete! My streaks are inching upwards in length again; I'm very happy about this. Still, last time I was at 7 days, I fell again before I could reach Uruk-Hai. Not this time. Risetogreatness already shared some words, but I wanted to add my bit as well. You're never going to be 100% certain what the outcome will be. That doesn't mean it's not worth doing. The analogy I always used for myself is jumping into a cold pool at the beginning of a workout, but that may not work for folks who didn't do years of swim team. A cold shower is a close enough example -- it's one of those things where you just have to step in, pushing any discomfort out of your brain because you know the temporary discomfort is far outweighed by what you stand to gain. It sounds cheesy, but "just do it" has some real merit. You can do it, man.
Thank you That scene <3 "I cannot carry the ring for you but I can carry you!" 16 days This time I'll make it to the 90
@RiseToGreatness @Gallade_Templar Thank you for the responses. It's a muscle that needs to be worked I guess. Top priorities: No porn, and working out. Gotta keep in mind what I'm working on. I have to brave the marshes soon...
Day 16 Today is going to be so hard, I have literally broken all of the unwriting laws of nofap. My wife and I came back from a vacation back into berlin, but the train got delayed 4 hours and we ended up going to bed at around 04:30 in the morning. The past day was so weird that we eat basically only junk food all day long. And on top of that, we need to change sublet apartments today in a couple of hours and we can only check into the new place 4 hours later so we will be homeless for a couple of hours. We are both really sleep deprived and cranky. I’ve been awake for a hour, and I’m already had more urges than I had in the last week. This day is not going to be fun. But I’m not going to fail today.
Day 232 no PMO. All afternoon yesterday I was angry and just couldn’t shake it. I just had this feeling of “what is the point of life?” I’m not saying I’m going to commit suicide or anything but just feeling angry and down.
Checking in day 5. Wasn't super hard yesterday. I started meditation, and I finished a lot in my book. Also went back to reading academic books. My energy pumping. Still procrastinating from time to time. But feeling much better now.
Childhood trauma I woke up with the discovery that when I was a little kid when I tried to be very ambitious in mundane goals I chew more than I can swallow, usually not thinking things carefully and I suffered from serious failures. I even forgot about this, it wasn't in my memory until today. This created a subconscious fear to success and to not really push myself to the extreme in terms of mundane achievements. I feel I understand myself more and I'm more open to success. I have the tools to succeed but I had a limitation in me that never quite figure out what it was and I think it's this childhood trauma.
Day 7. The temptations have been strong. Now that I have committed to no M it has been difficult to think clearly. I am hoping I flatline soon. Typically I have experienced a flatline at the two-week mark so I am pushing ahead to achieve this. Keeping my eye on the path!
Hey guys, one question... I started to having crashes on my mood, like short-depression periods, low libido, monkey on mind (i cannot focus), my motivation is okay so far. I am on day 18, is means i am on flat-line? I used to have almost always a stable mood since I remove procrastination from my life a several months ago, now I work as hard as I can, before that I used to feel depressed sometimes. Update: Day 18 completed, I am on day 19.
yeah, it´s the withdrawal. it sucks. hang in there brother, engage in good habits and keep following your nofap path