[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 6

Feel mostly over the situation that happened yesterday. I definitely don't care about her that much, so that's good. Before I would have been completely devastated. I do think it threw my rhythm off though. I got up a bit later and missed my Crypto shows. I did make sure to workout though. Not relapsing and working out are my top priorities right now.

There was also a surprise webinar for what I guess you could call a men's self improvement group that I'm in so I made sure to attend. Apparently we got some nofappers in there! Was glad to hear one guy made a month. One thing that was really reinforced to me was the importance of improving my inner world. I think it's time to start practicing affirmations! They always sounded like BS to me, but I think I'll try.

 

Day 49

 

Day 2 ...

 

43!

 

Day 10

 

Every day is a victory!!!

 

Day 3

 

Day 08/90.

 

1/90 Lost my way but I am not giving up.

 

That's the spirit bro you can do this.

 

Move on, never surrender

 

Day 8.

 

Day 84

 

Day 30!
Another milestone for me, very excited. Let's keep going...

 

We all can do this, never give up

 

Great! Congrats @Ketherlonk

 

Day 45/90

 

Day 4,
In my way to day 5

I have some doubt....not too much but it exist. I think it is normal. My confidence will grow with every clean day.

I always ask myself what's different this time? What can stop me? Can i really quit PMO forever? Oftentimes I can't find a convincing answer. Othertimes i lie to myself while knowing that i will relapse in anyway, and that there is no escaping from this loop.

Samething now, i don't know what's different this time! All i know is that PMO is destroying me, so i have to stop it. Do i still feel that i can't escape relapses? kind of. I need to convince myself that a forever streak is possible.

I'll start with a small goal. My ultimate goal now is to stay clean till 7 DEC, my birthday.
I hope i do it this time.

 

The doubt is happening to everyone me icluded, for the first weeks and couple of tries it will continue but i am at 43 days I always never think about that. I am feeling much better. its normal. Dont think about the days (like 7 or 90) take every day as the challenge. After a while you will not have a doubt.

 

Write a journal, at least in the first week. It helped me!