Day 4, In my way to day 5 I have some doubt....not too much but it exist. I think it is normal. My confidence will grow with every clean day. I always ask myself what's different this time? What can stop me? Can i really quit PMO forever? Oftentimes I can't find a convincing answer. Othertimes i lie to myself while knowing that i will relapse in anyway, and that there is no escaping from this loop. Samething now, i don't know what's different this time! All i know is that PMO is destroying me, so i have to stop it. Do i still feel that i can't escape relapses? kind of. I need to convince myself that a forever streak is possible. I'll start with a small goal. My ultimate goal now is to stay clean till 7 DEC, my birthday. I hope i do it this time.
The doubt is happening to everyone me icluded, for the first weeks and couple of tries it will continue but i am at 43 days I always never think about that. I am feeling much better. its normal. Dont think about the days (like 7 or 90) take every day as the challenge. After a while you will not have a doubt.
