R E L A P S E D at Day 60 It will now take the whole summer and then some to get to day 90 and to break my old record. Things I did wrong that lead to failure: 1. Worrying about E.D and my lack of sexual energy. 2. Letting fantasies play out in my head especially in the morning. 3. Didn't do the Tao-exercises to prevent Wet Dreams, this lead to a total of 10~ WD. 4. Didn't lift as much weights as I could've.. 5. This lead to weakness, and the kidneys were drained of energy and I could feel it in the kidney meridians behind my thighs as my legs felt more weak because of the energy leakage. This lead to more WD and more exhaustion. 6. I didn't eat properly. Not enough food and some times less healthy foods. I have a health problem that makes it difficult for me to eat, sometimes. Breakfast is important even if you're not hungry. I watched P for 7h, then PMO. So pointless. But, I made a ton of changes in my life during those 60 days and met new friends. One relapse rarely comes alone. I will be caucious. But now I just want to start all over again and do things the right way. I hope this will help you along the way to reach your goals. Day 0
Day 41 (No sexual thoughts, fantasy, voluntary self arousal, peeking triggering content for 20 days 2/20)
Day 42 (No sexual thoughts, fantasy, voluntary self arousal, peeking triggering content for 20 days 3/20)
Day 2! Feeling encouraged by the support of this community. In the last 15 years, I think my no PMO record is 10 days. Taking it one day at a time! We can do this!
This is just a little blip on the road to full recovery! As you have already alluded to, one relapse does not erase the progress you have made. Keep up the great work!
Day 3/90 The brain fog is gone. Feeling so happy this morning. I went for a long run in the forest again on the previous day and I think it had a very positive effect on my mind. Urges are non-existent at the moment. April Challenge (From April 5th onwards) Waking up at 5:30 am: 8/25 Morning Routine (Meditation, Gratitude, Affirmations): 10/25 No using my phone in bed: 2/25 Read at least 4 books in April: Book 2 of 4- Wake Up! Stop Sabotaging Your Happiness and Your Success Web Development learning for at least 100hrs: 10 hrs 28 mins Cold Shower: 6/25 News Fast:5/25 YouTube Fast: 1/25 Complete Recovery Nation Workshop: Lesson 41 of 73 Run 20 Kms: 17.96 of 20 Kms
