Day 1 complete! @yogiguru @CALM IN SUFFERING Thank you for your kind words and encouragement. You are right that I do not think often enough about WHY I want to avoid PMO so badly. I tell myself that these reasons are obvious, but I still need to remind myself frequently. Today was fine because I had lots to do. That makes things easier, so I will store up good days as insurance and courage against the days when things are hard. St. Jude the Apostle, pray for us!
Day 440 no PMO. Had a bit of trouble controlling my eyes out in public yesterday but it didn’t lead to any relapse. Just looked a time or two longer at a lady than I should have. Ran 20 miles last night and it absolutely crushed my legs.
Start of Day 1! [Done morning-routine: 5 min meditation, 1 min hand-stand, 2 min practising thankfullness, 7min relaxation video, 3 min practising self-love].
Day 20 baby, we start with the number two now. Yesterday was a calm day, i woke up 9:00, drink a tea, i went to the gym, study. No problem with urges.
Never used a device yesterday other than to listen to an audiobook while working on my remodeling projects around the house. Felt good to get things done, spend some time with family, and disconnect from the World Wide Web. This is my check in for both days; I passed through a few moments of urges but didn't struggle too much with any of them. Vigilance does not mean hyperfocus on the negative.
Day 128 The sun is out and my mood is improved; on the face of it today was like any other Sunday, but after conversation, prayer, and worship, I feel like I’m on my way out of my depressive slump. Currently in a YouTube hole of ankle and hip mobility videos, I had no idea how simply stretching them out could improve my form so dramatically!