Day 13, At the time of writing those words, I feel very exhausted. I'm going to take a long break from the internet. It was a tough week. Despite all the stress, anger, frustration, anxiety and fatigue, I managed to stay clean for almost two weeks "No matter how bad life may seem, there is always something you can do, and succeed at" ~Stephen Hawking I wish you all a peaceful weekend. Stay strong
18/90- Joy is abundant right now in my life despite the very strong urges. July Challenge Take a 2 min Cold Shower Daily Learning Software/Web Development (160 hours in total) Run/Jog at least 40 KM in total Research toxic shame daily Read about and practice Cognitive Behavioral Therapy daily Complete workshop in Recovery Nation (recoverynation.com) Read at least 4 books : Book 1 [Soft Porn Plays Hardball] Exercise Daily Use YouTube for only 30 mins max a day
Day 3 (2): it was uneasy day. Wanted to do another relapse but still, I have managed to hold out. There is supposed to be a bad joke about the quantity of relapses to hold out to 90 days. (sorry, guys) During this day I have practiced the drawing and the language. Today I'm about to hit the gym.
Awesome challenges!! I am already doing daily exercises or workouts ever since I started with my streak, it really feels good!! I used to be able to run 10km in one go a few years back, now I can't even hit 3km... So, I think I will pick up my running shoes again and join you on running for 40km this month!! Lets do it!! I am one day behind you at 17/90!! - lets keep this up together and hopefully we can both achieve the finish line together
Day 10 done. Just a thought about our common experience of relapsing frequently while trying to complete these challenges. I have had the same results, with occasional longish streaks of NoFap broken by periods where I've been resetting frequently or giving up on it for a while. This seems to be so common, that for me I'm trying to see success in terms of each day that I keep to my no PM goal, and how it made that day a better one for me. For that day, I wasn't doing something that I felt bad about, I was more open to other people, my mind was less tossed about by every sexual stimulus, I had more energy to give to other, more beneficial things. I'm sure there are lots of other things others could add as well. Doing challenges and focusing on streaks can add a bit of motivation to get us through strong urges, but it can also be detrimental if it's our only way of defining our success or failure. Every single day of NoFap can be celebrated.
And again a fall, though during the day which is atypical. Will start to focus on implementing a good bedtime routine. Day 0