Day 4 Almost lost it all a couple of minutes ago. I’ve woken up 20 minutes ago feeling really tired and with a morning erection (not a daily thing for me) and I’ve spent like ten minutes looking at my phone thinking: “I’m just going to look at some stuff, not to PMO or even edge but just look at it”. And that is just such a weird thing to think. But I used to do it, a remember so many times where I would just kind of go “extreme fishing” in the morning looking at basically porn for like 15 minutes and then get on with my day (or PMO…). And I have no explanation for that… Anyway. I’ve put the phone away and wrote this instead. So, a win I guess
Day 2 no PMO. Yesterday was much better with basically no urges. I knew my family would not be home until late last night so I stayed at work late to minimize my “home alone” time. When I did get home I still had over an hour to entertain myself but I stayed on the right path and just watched some TV and even took a short nap.
223 days semen retention Day 3 water fast Some energy fluctuations at the end of day 2 but it was bed time so more easy to handle I just had to go to sleep. Day 3 it's starting by having a more clear head, more loose, no food cravings. From previous fasts I've come to understand more how fasting works, after a while there are peaks and lows of energy. I just have to endure the low energy fluctuations at the end is worth the effort. Probably will break the fast later on the day with some eggs, bread and then some meat.
Checking in. Made it through the night despite urges. Feeling better this morning. Have a great day Fellowship, you got this.
Thank you my brother! Indeed a bit addictive, but I rather the addiction of positive camaraderie, than that of isolation with PMO, or isolation with any other dopamine chase really. Mark Queppet it a wise man! Yes, let's get work my friend! I have a lot to learn. Ohh I see, changes to the challenge. I liked the aspect of destroying the ring as the final goal, as it was very symbolic with destroying our addictions, but this also looks interesting. You have a very creative mind! Thank you bro! Very nice to see you keeping well, incredible streak! We got this Paul! Thank you my friend! Thank you brother! Yes, the time is now. As someone who relapsed after a long streak, failed again and disappeared. I can assure you made the right decision my friend. I'm glad you decided to stick around, and there is no judgment here. All your efforts thus far will properly you forward again, it's just a matter of honing them again. Something I failed to do prior to my hiatus. Let's climb again!
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 1 Day Free of PMO. I was a fool to have left, thank you for the warm embrace my friends. 1 day - At Buckland, Bilbo gives you Sting - an Elven short-sword made in Gondolin. It will turn blue when porn forces are around.
38 days Low urges yestarday, worked almost all day. Today I worked out and took a cold shower. A lot of things to do today and very grateful to be in this community! We can do it brothers, we can do it! Keep strong.
Checking in Fellowship!! Lot´s of good vibes today, awesome! As for me, not a good day, withdrawal is upon me, anxiety and damn brain fog are here. but this time i can´t take a break and do a wim hof breathing, i got to stay at work. so i will just accept this situation, and try to do my best for the remaining working hours. what bothers me the most is that i can´t be polite with people, i´m just too afraid, specially with women . anyways, i´ll try a new strategy to sleep better tonight, and hope that brain fog is lighter tomorrow. No urges or temptations, still in flatline. Have a great day brotherhood!! Checking out. Here´s our dearest @Redemptionisrequired with words of enlightnment . (You still have the hang of this brother! ) "I rather the addiction of positive camaraderie, than that of isolation with PMO, or isolation with any other dopamine chase really."
Day 3 / 1000. Northern summer continues. In some sense it's good I guess, because I can work inside without much guilt. A bit tricky to wake up, when it's raining, but, again, can't complain. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- 3 days – PMO forces have spotted you!! With haste you use the Bucklebury Ferry to cross the Brandywine river. Spoiler: Journey stuff {} Stuff that should help to not pmo: 1. No internet for recreational purposes until 6 pm. 2. Waking up on the same time every day.
Day 2! Today I had 3 viewings of my apartment - all were very interested. A ton of weight off my shoulders. Have a great rest of the day
34 days – You reached the Doors of Durin, the West-door of Moria. Had great day today, one of the company in which I was interviewing called me and offered me a job! NoFAP helped me a lot. I was very confident during the interview. Also crystal clear mind.
Day 194 Lots of relationship stuff happening around the workplace today, and I’m glad I’m not part of it; really hoping it settles down soon. No urges today, also met a woman who started up an anti-porn charity here in the UK and found her very inspiring. She’s working to help the government take a stronger stand against the industry and the evil it creates, I hope she succeeds.
Evening of the 2nd day. Busy day today. No time for that PMO business. Last night I was writing a check-in post but ended up getting too tired to finish it. Or maybe lacked the confidence to post it is more accurate. Here's the message I saved. Today I made a delivery of something I sold online. Up until I called to clarify exactly where the apartment was I assumed the buyer was a guy. Turns out it was a young woman. There were two young women. Both immigrants and both attractive. I can not say my mind handled them perfectly but I believe it did not wander as far as it would have a couple years ago, or even a year ago. Definitely more relaxed. Later on I did note a fantasy form in my head where the two of them found me attractive. That can be laid to rest, what they think of me is none of my business. Not long ago I wrapped a banana in a tortilla with peanut butter and jam. At some point over the past year I started having the thought of putting a penis in my mouth when eating one of these. I blame porn for this one. Hopefully by posting some bad attitudes and thoughts are expelled.
