Day 81. July 17th DON’T ABANDON OTHERS . . . OR YOURSELF “As you move forward along the path of reason, people will stand in your way. They will never be able to keep you from doing what’s sound, so don’t let them knock out your goodwill for them. Keep a steady watch on both fronts, not only for well-based judgments and actions, but also for gentleness with those who would obstruct our path or create other difficulties. For getting angry is also a weakness, just as much as abandoning the task or surrendering under panic. For doing either is an equal desertion—the one by shrinking back and the other by estrangement from family and friend.” —MARCUS AURELIUS, MEDITATIONS, 11.9 As we begin to make progress in our lives, we’ll encounter the limitations of the people around us. It’s like a diet. When everyone is eating unhealthy, there is a kind of natural alignment. But if one person starts eating healthy, suddenly there are opposing agendas. Now there’s an argument about where to go for dinner. Just as you must not abandon your new path simply because other people may have a problem with it, you must not abandon those other folks either. Don’t simply write them off or leave them in the dust. Don’t get mad or fight with them. After all, they’re at the same place you were not long ago.
Day 197 Spent the day on a joint stag/hen party, feeling alright this morning but very tired as we did a lot of outdoor activities in the sun! We visited a bar where girls are allowed to jump on the bar and dance, I took one look and decided to leave.
Checking in Fellowship Friends! 5 Days Free of PMO. Practicing the physio exercises for my ear has proven to be a challenge, it induces dizziness. This is rather unpleasant, but we must carry on. It's a test of will I suppose. I've been spending the last few days doing Wim Hof breathing as well as meditating. This has been nice. I can't workout just yet, but I'm still stretching. Hopefully tomorrow I'll hit a nice workout. Stay strong! 5 days - With rain and fog you enter the old village of Bree.
42 days Some high urges yestarday, but managed them thinking in what I'm doing this. I want to play guitar again, I need a good habit to matain me focused and happy . Today I didn't worked out(my rest day) but took a cold shower. The cold showers always are diffult when I didn't do exercise lol. Keep strong my brothers.
Checking in brotherhood!! Less posts today, as usual in Sundays. let me remind everyone that staying accountable daily is super important to the reboot process. The addiction doesn´t take days off! so stay sharp brothers, and be accountable to the Fellowship. As for me, hard night last night. i had terrible stomach pains due to bad nutrition (binging). this lead me to stay awake until 2:30 am. with the fatigue and disconfort, i started fishing on TV, and eventually found some sexy music videos. watched a bit, but then came to my senses. at the same time, fortunatelly the stomach pain passed, so i hit the bed. i didn´t sleep at all as i was triggered, but didn´t leave the bed until morning. today i made an extensive retroactive journal entry, detailing what happened and how i will change my aproach towards food and nutrition. i will not risk another night like that, plus it´s clearly unhealthy to eat like that. so now my mind is clear and my nutrition system is well defined. So far so good, i´ve been eating in moderation, and mostly healthy foods. Feeling good despite the situation, my day was productive. but i´m gonna be extra careful on the next days, as i´m still in a unstable situation. On a good note, there´s gonna be another Tolkien book published!! It´s focused on the Second Age, and the release date will coincide with Amazon’s The Lord of the Rings: The Rings of Power!! Super news for us https://www.tolkiensociety.org/2022/06/new-tolkien-book-the-fall-of-numenor-to-be-published/ So, Tolkien fans, we have a treat!! One more motivation to destroy our porn rings Checking out. Have a great day and week ahead!!!
Day 2 Not a great day for me today. I feel a lot of pain inside most of the time, and the way I deal with it is by trying to make other people happy. At church I go around asking other people about their lives, listening to them, being kind to them, but inside I treat myself like trash. My mum said to me tonight that I don’t need to worry about other people, they all have their own responsibility. It’s more important that I love myself and nurture myself at this time in my life. I think she’s right. I’ve been very cruel to myself for a long time, and I would like to learn how to treat myself with more kindness and learn to love myself as God would have me love myself. That’s why I feel hopeful about going away for a month on Wednesday. I’m going to do lots of nice things for myself, go to lots of nice places, and try to create lots of nice moments with people I feel happy to be around. Been using the Hallow app more regularly and it gives me deep peace. Really encouraged and helped me to listen to it as I went around town today. Reminded me of my value as a son of God and gave me peace and clarity and confidence.
Day 198 Had quite a relaxed morning and then visited a friend’s home for a BBQ and drinks by the pool; I was quite reluctant to go as I was still rather tired from the day before, but in the end I had a very peaceful afternoon and had a great time. Even though my body isn’t in prime shape I’ve got a lot more confidence to go shirtless, and in today’s sun with a gentle breeze I was feeling amazing. Even though the girls there were obviously in swimwear I didn’t really have a problem looking at them, and realising that made me feel a lot more confident in my ability to control my eyes.
Day 1 complete. Sorry I've been away for a bit, Fellowship. Didn't have access to my computer but I still found ways to fall twice in the last twelve or so days. I'm going to start posting regularly again. St. Peter, pray for us!
Day 5 I plan on cultivating some feminine energy. It will do me good to shed some ego and testosterone.
10 days – You spend the night at the old Watchtower of Amon Sûl. PMO forces are lurking in the area. They certainly do.
39 (7 hard mode) days complete This day was good, I woke up in my friend's house. We had a little fight with my wife when we got back home. I am irritated by how easily she can get mad. She got mad because I didn't eat the strawberries that she left for me and some of them got bad.
