I fell into a pretty bad spiral, but I'm sick of staying there. I've got to climb out and fortunately, I have a lot of help to do so. Numerous APs, this thread, folks following my journal. I've got the tools, I just need to use them. Day 3 checking in.
Day 25. Was home for about 20 days for Eid vacation, returned to the university hall today. Feeling lonely and sad. Have to stay on guard.
Day 9 in Gryffindor Year 1 complete! Rare urges here and there that I manage to get past. I attribute it primarily to how tight my schedule is. I am loving how days pass w/o thoughts of P,M, or O. "I am choosing to think thoughts that serve me well."
Day 82. Gryffindor Year 7. There are more and more interesting events in my everyday life. After graduation, I feel some confusion and pressure of many and many opportunities to continue my activities. But I also feel confidence and a great desire and interest to try different things and create. I believe that process of reboot and abstinence play an important role. Let's keep going!
Day 52 Was mindlessly searching social media. Facebook, Instagram, Twitter. Had to stop myself and log on here. What the heck? So easy to default to looking for videos. Have to remind myself that it's not real. In my married life, I might say that this is the longest I haven't M'ed to P. Just so ingrained within me. Helps scrolling through here and seeing everyone's updates. Keep at it!