[30-CHALLENGE] THE THIRTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 23/30.

 

I want my life back.
Day 2.

 

Fuck I ruined it. Masturbated last night here from beginning Day 0

 

Fourth day. Desire hit me several times yesterday, but I don't want to go back to my porn-obsessed life, stick to nofap, and I will succeed.

 

Day 12 completed

 

It does help to have a big picture, but at the same time, failing it could burden more. The key is to realize that progress is not lost in failing and a new lesson is learnt, so we can fight again, now equipped with more knowledge and strength. Lets stay strong and put up our best fight and make em numbers real!

Do u wanna share with us what happened?

Thats great u r fighting hard! you got this!

 

Hey @Surge95, don't beat yourself up too bad over this (sorry in advance for the poor choice of words). Think of this as a great learning opportunity for you. As of now, you are probably going through the same motions I did when I relapsed. Dread, confusion, depression, self-hatred, and a little bit of lust (thanks to the relapse) were all what i went through the last time I relapsed. And I'm more than certain you're probably going through something similar right now too. What is important is that you still wish to continue to improve yourself. In the meantime, now is the time to find out what went wrong while your memories are still fresh. What lead to your urge? what pushed you to act on it? What can you fo in the future to avoid giving in to your urge? All of these questions are essential for you to get further on your attempts to better yourself.

I want you to keep up the good fight and keep working on yourself. Keep digging for your success until you find it.

 

Day 5/30

I woke up to an urge first thing this morning. I wasn't even concious all the way when I realized what my body was doing. Don't get me wrong I'm glad I got to the point of getting morning wood again, but at the same time, it's like my body was trying to trick me right out of the gate today. Luckily for me I resisted.

I did have three major urges today. I went through the motions (exercise, go to a public place, etc.) and everything went back to normal.

I do think I'm getting close to a mental flatline though. All my motivation to exercise has kind of left me today. I didnt even feel like leaving my place today, let alone exercising. I'm getting to the point where I am just convincing myself that I need to exercise for my health and to distract me. Hopefully this won't result in a full-blown flatline. But, you never know.

"I alone cannot change the world, but I can cast a stone across the waters to create many ripples." —Mother Theresa

Day 5 down, 25 more to go.

 

I want my life back.

Day 3.
I mourn the innocence of 12 year Olds and 13 year olds who have just discovered porn

 

Day 6/30
Today I had an urge this early morning, even tiredness made me back to bed instead of reading that time, I felt many of you here are looking at me. So, I avoided relapsing.

 

16

 

When will I get rid of this shit

 

Hey it will take time, don't be hard on urself. Try to relax a bit for now, alright? And take ur time to introspect. This is a long journey with many failures along the way, but you stick with it and fight despite all that and you will make it eventually. Meanwhile, be kindto urself. I know u can do this!

 

Thank you so much! I needed those words badly.

 

Day 24/30.

 

Day 3 completed (33 in my current streak).

How r u holding up today?

 

Day 0

 

Day 6/30

*POSSIBLE TRIGGER WARNING*
Ok, so some interesting developments. I've had 2 major urges today while I was in class. It was nothing major at first. I thought, "I'm in class right now, it's not like I can just whip it out and go to town." I've always made it a point to never leave class mid-lecture. Well, my body is really trying to work against me. I couldn't move and I could do nothing but think about my urge. It eventually started leading to me building up. I was literally heating up right in my seat. It was like I was on edge the entire time. If the room got a sudden burst of air, I would have been done for. Thankfully, I made it through undetected (to everyone else).

Aside from that horrible moment, it's been pretty ok. I found out I lost some weight and I've found a second wind in working out. All and all, it's been a positive (yet dangerous) day.

"Passion creates, addiction consumes." —Gabor Maté.

Day 6 down, 24 to go.

 

U have done great, fighting it off strong! I hope things go easier on u in the coming days. Good luck and stay strong : )

 

Today, I am not feeling well, my mood is not good, I always want to vent by watching porn, and finally I relapse. To start over, I have to avoid porn.