THE SUPER SAIYAN CHALLENGE! What is your Power Level?! (RANKS ARE BACK, GET YOURS NOW!

Day 40 - Oozaru

 

Day 30. Oozaru!

 

Day 214!

 

Day 17

I almost slipped on one of my P email messages. Managed to look away on my peripheral. Wow I hate that sometimes. I made it. There were other things as well.

Mostly, something still in me to rant again later. My Vegeta side is kicking in again.

Maybe I will start watching the sub version of DBZ soon. I haven't done that yet. I'm thinking of watching Dragon Ball Super on Dub as well sooner or later. I love the Sub a lot more than the Dub this time around. I like the Dub for DBZ (which I grew up as a kid) because of the music in it. I don't know, it is just fire for me. Gives me fire inside of me Still deciding to watch sooner or later.

@hewm Congrats on Oozaru!

@LeviHS Congrats on Elite Warrior!

@Redemptionisrequired I just realized your almost at Super Saiyan 3 rank. Did time go that fast?! I remember you getting to Super Saiyan 2 when I was here. But seriously this fast? I don't know. Wow. Seeing you progress makes me not want to fall because you will move up then I have to start from the beginning again if I relapse again. I don't want that. Well I am still behind you and following still. As long as I don't slip back even though I said I would take a little more L's or more again if it happens. That's it. And you know what I hate this keeping an watchful eye. Ever since you said something about complacency, now I am ever so watchful every single day Doing my best here! It's annoying but I'm doing it. Just my thoughts.

Any way, I'm still aiming for Super Saiyan first but onward to Oozaru

@MJ93 I remember you coming in saying your situation. As Redemptionisrequired, learn from it. As I said before about dating sites, never ever give money to anyone if you never met in person yet. You were doing a fantastic job during your streak before your relapse. You can do it again. Keep on going fellow Saiyan.

Keep Training Saiyans!

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

93 Days Free of PMO.

I'm feeling calm still, which is really a nice change of pace. I'm tackling more stressful situations at work and managing quite well. I'm still skeptical though, as I know that PAWs type withdrawal can appear suddenly and last a few days, but for now I'm enjoying myself. I'm improving my overall organization.

Regarding urges, well, the last 2 days in the morning I had some "real life" flashbacks with an inkling of "erotic" tendency but nothing that I would cave into.

A few chores for today, rest , meditation and work.

Keep training!


@hewm Congrats on your new rank Saiyan!


@LLOYYD Time definitely has passed rather quickly. I think the importance here is that those days between achieving SS2 and today, is that I am making these days count. What I find awesome is if I compare how I felt on my first long streak vs now, its night and day. So I am grateful that my efforts, even though I had relapsed for a few months in between, have not disappeared and I am gaining momentum because of those practices. The PAWs I felt on my first long streak was very challenging, this time around its no where near as bad. Although, I also realize that my mindset is quite different this time around. I don't intend to make the same mistake I did last time, I am planning to make this my final streak.

And yes, contending with complacency is definitely one piece of the puzzle to maintaining a longer streak and it can be quite challenging. You're doing great my Saiyan brother, keep learning as you go and try your best not to focus on "What if I relapse". Continue to make those days count and grow from them. @Kingfisher is a testament to that, he would go on long streak and then have a minor slip, but he kept going and I've seen him achieve so many long streaks. Many of which were over 100 days, I'm certain the progress in his life is tremendous.

 

Day 15.
Elite-Warrior!

 

Congratulations! Let's keep our guards up and keep training

 

Day 215!

@Yambo, congratulations!

@Redemptionisrequired, thank you brother! It's all about rising again after a setback. One day at a time.

 

Day 18

Feeling good/ok but I felt I lacked a bit sleep when I woke up.
Almost slipped again. I was casually looking in Amazon Japan for calendars and P images were around. I couldn't stay so I exited out. I hate that.
Again, I have to somehow clean it up my Amazon Japan account.

Nothing else to report. Reading stuff here and I will hit the gym soon or later.

@Redemptionisrequired Thank you brother! Time certainly does go by. This I'm aiming to beat my no PMO streak. I am just keeping up here. Right, of course I will try not dwell on "What if I relapse". I trying to make that effort every day as I go. I am curious about @Kingfisher is journey. I want to read some posts as I'm learning. Right now, I'm doing whatever I can do get to my main goal here.

To the nay sayers reading this, I never said it here but yes I want my long streak for number of reasons. If you have a problem with that then go back to incorporating M or MO or PMO like everyone else in the world even if you are able to achieve a long streak. Another response is screw you. Moving on. That is my rant for now.

This is me being nice.

Like I say that to anyone over here and other threads. I try my best to encourage people to move up here in this NoFap lifestyle with my advice and not question why they want a higher streak.

Onward to Super Saiyan but first Oozaru.
Let's go Saiyans.

Keep Training Saiyans!

 

Checking in Saiyan's!

94 Days Free of PMO.

Some anger arose this morning, moments of the past, people who did harm in one way or another. If I delve deeper, no external person can harm me unless I leave them to. Although difficult to practice, it is something that I'm trying to adopt.

Ruminating over anger, is in and of itself, poison at the root. If we externalize it onto another, we continue that bitter cycle. Best to just watch what arises, forgive the situation. Write out a letter that you will burn if you must, but don't get tangled in its web. Free yourself from its hold and seek to understand it. Not resist it. Likely that anger is also trying to tell you something, seek to see what that is and change what is in your capacity and never seek to change another. This would only feed your anger more, given we cannot control how others act and react, only what we do ourselves.

Keep training!

@Yambo Well done Saiyan!! Keep at it.

 

Day 70!

 

Thank you all and to you: have a great weekend!

Day 16.

 

day 10. The last 10 have flown by tbh.

 

Back at the beginning..

It had actually been hitting me all week. I fantasized a lot. Not even consciously. I haven't slept for nights. I kept it up for 4 days but yesterday it didn't work. I just couldn't get through it.

I think one of the reasons is that I'm texting a girl on one of the dating apps. And I already know it's not wife material, just for sex. And that got me. That's why I've now done the following: I deleted her number, blocked her and been very honest with myself: don't do this again. It counts as porn. I wasn't even attracted to her, only her body.

I'm glad I could be honest about it and share it with you. I just want to have a no pmo lifestyle.

Day 0!

PS: the days where I was extremely horny just went well I could resist a lot this week!

 

Day 19

Pretty good overall including mood. I didn't get to hit the gym earlier so I have to wait until Sunday midnight over here where I live to go. This was an important for me for this journey. That is all I'm going to say.

From yesterday, I forgot to mention that I was looking for a movie scene from a movie that I was searching on Youtube by one of the movies from Tales From the Crypt. If you heard of it and there was a vampire movie associated with it after finding one of the scenes found from the movie I was looking for. It was one of videos recommended to me after I watched one of the scenes that I was looking for. I never heard of it and so I clicked on the video lo and behold I saw topless women vampires

See, I have no control over this. Any way, good thing I wasn't trigger as much but sometimes it can get to me.

@LeviHS On my part, just doing the best day by day. Doing my best to get my ranks here and ascend higher. Sometimes, I don't know if it's enough.
But I'm glad everyone else doing good for the most part. Motivating to see others moving up and keeping on track. Again, I'm kicking ass now because I have been fired up as a Saiyan & I am serious. I'm not letting no one tell me I can't do this! Because I can! I did say you have to go Super Saiyan to beat this PMO addiction now didn't I?

@Yambo Sorry for the relapse bro. Rise again fellow Saiyan.

As my two of shaker bottle for the gym says "KILLING IT". I love it because that's what I do when I train at the gym.
Let's go Saiyans!

My redemption is on it's way.

Keep Training Saiyans!