Day 16 completed (76 in my current streak). Nearly relapsed yesterday. I need to be stronger. Cant let this unhealthy coping win.
Day 1/30. Been doing the challenges past few months. I'll be good day 7 or 8 then flop when I'm in bed and let loose. Making it a habit to check here or find something to do before my habit gets the best of me.
The time now is 12.09 am, Friday, October 21. Opportunities are coming my way. Imposter syndrome kicking in and anxiety are on the rise. Whatever it is, I'm learning to embrace my wife into all of me. My feelings, my decisions, my fears - everything. It's gradual; I still make mistakes. But there's good progress, I think. Day 20 of 30 complete, currently 26 days streak on Hardmode PMO since 25th September.
Day 0/30 Relapsed again after 7 days. Bit disappointed. Need to gather my will force. I still regret relapsing on day 36 when I was cruising along so well.
Day 2/30. Had a talk with a friend of mine. Told her what I was doing with NoFap and how I wanted to throw away masterbation and pornography for good. She thought I was being hard on myself but I told her that I wanted this to stop so If I were to jack off again I would end up back to watching porn again. She understood after a few minutes of me explaining myself. Told her with me not doing PM I got to do a few things and not feel as tired like I used to be with PM. I came to the conclusion that most people will think porn doesn't mess with your mind but it does. Also learned that with goals I'll rather just show people what I'm doing more than I can tell them.
18/30 (Friday) I never been this far. However I little bit worried that I don't have any urges. I have to say I removed one trigger for me which was visiting "thepiratebay" and checking porn torrents. Even if I wasn't planning downloading anything I was telling myself I will only check "screenshots" but always ending up downloading sooner or later. I don't visit the website and after 18 days I didn't any slip ups.
The time now is 11.28 pm, Friday, October 21. Day 21 of 30 complete. 27-day streak on Hardmode PMO since 25th September. Single-digit countdown begins: 9 days left
