0/90, resetting the counter b/c I messed up and gave in. BUT, I'm proud of myself for going 21 days w/out PMO, as that is the longest I've gone so far. It's progress
Day 24/90 Feeling good. Probably my first ever post for the year. This is the year I'm quitting porn, I finally feel confident about it. Last year was amazing, thanks to the fact that I could live without the same of porn. I still did it, many times, only was 75% of the year clean... but it was a huge progress. This year I'm aiming for the 100%. I want to get lust out of my life, I want to live life as it should be, and get back to my productivity lifestyle (before a trip I had last year). So far this year is going great, I'm moving cities in 3 days to start university and it'll be amazing to start with a 30-day streak on top of me. I'm feeling confident, attractive, focused. Still have a long ride though, but knowing that I'm doing all this progress at my young age just makes me feel good about myself. Have started to be lonely again, but this time it isn't hitting me that hard. I'm also going through an undesired breakup, but the fact that I'm not relying on porn to move on is very big. Wouldn't have believed this would be happening if someone had told me just 15 months ago (when I started my NoFap journey). Finally, I'm determined to get these 90 days. Whatever it takes. No PMO at all - even if I get to have the opportunity to share intimacy with a girl, I'll skip until I'm done with this hardmode challenge. Doing it right for 90 days is key according to many, so I have to do it. No more excuses, I gotta take control over my life in all aspects. Wanted to share an update for a while ago but hadn't had the energy and inspiration to do so. Hope to be able to bring good news soon, we got this family!
Bleh I keep falling behind on my daily post. Sunday was day 21 and it was a really tough day. Monday I found new resolve on day 22 and started reading Your brain on P. Today is day 23 and I finished the book and I feel good about fighting these urges and even just working my way through anything that troubles me journey.
Thank you for the insight. I am going through EMDR for childhood trauma right now too and I think that plus my cutting out PMO addiction has made me feel better than I have felt in years about myself
Day 40! Unfortunately I didn't post for a few days since my daily rhythm and emotional equilibrium was a little disrupted. I feel centered again and I know that I am walking the right path.
I don’t understand entirely how it works either but it essentially is taking my childhood trauma and making me think more reasonably about it rather than blaming myself and making myself feel unworthy as I so often do.
