(UPDATE) 400 Days (1+ Year) Free of PMO & Transforming Into A New Man

Ever since I was 17, I have struggled with porn and masturbation. It mostly stemmed from loneliness, not having friends, not having the confidence to meet girls , and growing up in a very broken and dysfunctional family, where the father was not there, and I was not taught the masculine life skills that a father teaches his son.

The addiction originally continued up until I was 28 (summer of 2018), when I finally overcame my urges, and went for a year and a month free of porn and masturbation. Unfortunately, I relapsed, and it was a hard relapse. At the time, I was in a relationship with a woman, and not realizing at the time, the negative energy that she brought to the relationship and me not knowing how to approach her about it without a backlash, it lured me back into PMO in order to numb what I was feeling inside. There was no physical attraction to her, but due to me feeling bad for her at the time, I continued to stay with her, and the relationship lasted until September of 2022. It was an unhappy relationship, and it further made me dive deep into PMO during the time I was with her. I would not be able to get erect just naturally, and needed her to either stroke me to get me erect, or I had to quietly fantasize about what I watched and seen on the internet to get hard and maintain it while being sexual with her.

It reached a point where ordinary pornography could not cut it for me anymore, and I was further lured into cam girls, which really drained my energy, and made me lose a lot of money in the process as well. Eventually, it made me feel extremely low about myself, and I felt like I reached the absolute rock bottom.

Given that all unhappy relationships have an ending, mine was no different. In September of 2022, after just over 3 years of being together, she broke up with me. I was devastated, but after a few days of processing everything and reflecting, I decided that this would be the perfect opportunity to start working on myself, and rid myself of the PMO demon once and for all.

For a whole month afterward, I kept relapsing day after day, but once I reached mid-October, I told myself that I could not continue like this, and basically, the PMO demon had to be surgically extracted out of me one way or another. Since October 16th of 2022, I have not masturbated or gotten aroused by pornography at all. Combined with me returning to fitness, working out on a regular basis, focusing on more important things, and a new job that I started in which I earn a lot more money and now being able to finally save money again and stabilize/repair my financial situation, it has healed me a lot. Being free of PMO for over 90 days, I feel like I have more energy, more driven to accomplish goals, more disciplined, motivated, in addition to becoming a lot more authoritative in the way I speak and interact with others, not putting up with nonsense from others either. In addition, I started talking to a new woman, and being free of PMO and negative energy, and not having her bring any negative energy either, when I was sexual with her just over a month ago, I actually got erect instantly and naturally, without any fantasies or tugging away. I am completely attracted to her, and I managed to maintain the erection for the whole entire time I was having sex with her.

Now that I have pulled off over 90 days without diving into the PMO bottomless pit, I feel like I am on my way to being the lion that God and nature intended for me to be, and not the docile and lethargic sheep that I was before.

 

Aside from fitness and gym workouts, me now working at a highly paid job where I am now able to save money and not feel like I am struggling to make ends meet, it motivates me to keep going and never fall back into the old habits ever again. Not to mention the fact that being energized is something I need to thrive in my position. Eating healthy, and reading a lot of deep material about why everything is the way it is, it also helped me accomplish my goal.

Finally, I have noticed how women interact with me a lot differently and enthusiastically with me ever since I started consistently abstaining from PMO, it made me see how others pick up on my vibe and energy without me even realizing.

 

Thank you for taking your time to post your story. Your honesty is appreciated. I've never reached 30 days let alone 60, 90.. however seeing posts like these really motivates me. We both are the same age and like you I began the cycle in my mid to late teens. It got worse when I received a laptop and high speed internet. I'm sure you can relate to that in some ways.

You have found that important balance in your life and you can only continue to build yourself. Keep up the good work mate. Cheers

 

When battling PMO addiction, basically, you have to utilize military-type self-discipline and motivation. You have to see this as a combat mission, where you have to come out victorious, and not give up. It is not easy by any stretch of the imagination, but you have to just keep pushing brother. At the end, you come out stronger than ever before, seeing things through a completely different perspective as well.

 

Great to hear of your story! Keep up the good work

 

https://shawnsjames.blogspot.com/2013/07/porn-is-fake.html

This is something that really opened my eyes to how dark and demonic pornography is.

 

An update on my progress:

This past Monday (23rd of January), I have surpassed the 100 day milestone of my goal to be liberated from PMO addiction.

I have continued with intense gym workouts and outdoor runs any chance I get, and I have noticed that abstaining from PMO for this long has really pushed me to intensify my workouts and gives me the drive at full throttle. As part of my workout regiment, I have now included a boxing bag session, and let me tell you, what a great way to unleash all of the stress and anxiety, in addition to being able to see the firepower in me while I am basically going loco on the bag.

As far as my sexual urges are concerned, given that lately my work schedule has been wearing me the hell out on Sundays and Mondays, when I come home, all I want is some quiet time, and sex and women are not even a thought.

In addition, given that the negativity of others had previously ended up pushing me back into PMO, the past 2 weeks, I had to cut out certain people from my life who brought nothing but negativity to me. It is bad enough that I work at a very stressful job where I have to deal with the modern day savagery of the public, I do not have any time for negative vibes and energy in my personal life anymore.

 

Update:

I have now surpassed the 120 day milestone of the NoFap journey and my mission to be free of the tentacles of PMO.

The past several weeks, it has not been the easiest experience. There were certain days where I was feeling extremely overwhelmed, and like I had to keep myself from having a mental breakdown. A combo of flashbacks of my past experiences, the "what-if I did this or that" thoughts, and all my failed past relationships, it was testing me mentally.

My fitness progress has continued on regardless though. It has been a key part of my recovery the past 4 months, and I am going full throttle with it. On several different exercises at the gym, I have increased the weight load that I use for my workouts. Feeling a lot stronger. Being free of PMO, it has given me the push to workout to the absolute limits and push them.

For the month of January, I felt like my sexual urges were not there, and like I was in a flatline. The past week though, I started having morning erections again, and my sexual urges are restarting again.

The more I keep going being free of PMO, the more and more I want it to continue. Absolutely no desire to ever view the pornographic filth on the internet ever again.

 

Anytime. It goes to show that if you really put your mind and soul to something, you can accomplish anything you dream of, and bulldoze your way through any obstacles, barriers, or distractions thrown your way.

 

Update:

I have pushed past the 150 day milestone of my NoFap journey. Now I am 5 months clean of PMO.

Lately, I have noticed that I have become a lot more angrier, and when certain people tried to test me by spewing complete nonsense and BS at me, I actually verbally bit back and did not hold my tongue in regards to what I truly thought of them. The more further I go in my NoFap journey, I find that I have little to no patience for stupidity and BS when I see others engage in it.

My fitness routine continues to be on a roll. As part of my recovery, I have now also started to reduce the amount of carbs I eat as part of my goal to be healthy.

Finally, the sexual urges have fully come back with a vengeance, and some days are the ultimate test of my determination and willpower of the NoFap goal to be free of PMO. I constantly remind myself that I have come this far, and that I have to keep the momentum going FULL THROTTLE.

 

Update:

I have pushed past the 180 day milestone of my combat mission to be free of PMO, meaning that I am now officially 6 months (half a year) clean from it.

I still feel a lot of anger these days, and some days I have to restrain myself from snapping at those who test me. Abstaining from PMO has made my anger emotions very vivid too, which made me realize just how much I masked it with PMO previously.

My sexual urges have rewired as well. Just a woman's touch alone is enough to fully arouse me now. What a difference it makes having intimate connections naturally without any internet filth warping my mind.

My fitness routine is still on a roll, and now , I have expanded it to long distance bike rides. What a rush as well. I purchased a really solid and nice bike for it too.

It can be done brothers. If I can do it, so can you!!