Heirs' June "Stop the Autopilot" Challenge thread

Cheerios to the Grave Lords who put forth this challenge!!...getting out of Autopilot mode was something I want to do but couldn't work upon on a constant and consistent basis..This is gonna be a real blessing for me!

Day 1

Part 1- I made up my mind to learn some academic stuffs..This is something new to me because I never care to study unless there's some exams or presentations come up and Its the deadline...I suffer from serious procrastination issues...but I managed to read for 15 minutes, before losing focus and drowsing off...Anyway little little steps towards focusing on my career I guess..

Part 2- After my morning exercise, I meditated for sometime listening to some soothing music...My mind was like.."enough of the depressing thoughts and laziness following your recent slip...you can get up and walk on, you can start over again and rise once more, go start working on it.." I felt a quiet positive energy..

 

6/2

OOO (out of the ordinary): I was engaged in conversation with a barista while getting a tea. Rather than just answer her question and be done with talking, I cheerfully engaged her back and we ended up having the longest conversation I've had with a cashier in quite a while. I sense my energy is improving and I am becoming more magnetic to people, essentially the negativity from the last relapse is fading and positive energy is slowly building.

MM (mundane mutterage): After meditation this morning I realized that when I relapse I weaken my entire energy system and also my mind. Everything from my CNS to my mental stamina is weakened. I need more sleep because of this drain. I am essentially shortening my life by fapping. Not only by wasting life force, but by wasting time bingeing and also the time it takes to recover. By sleeping less and being energized and motivated I could be utilizing the time wasted to be getting my ass to Awesometown rather than lollygagging in Mediocreville.

 

An imagination is so important. For both living a fulfilling life and having the best relationships possible.



What are you passionate about?



Tapping into what makes you unique is a good place to start. Any talents you can develop, any areas you are utterly passionate about that you can delve into?

I have a feeling you play the victim to stinking thinking much of the time, as many of us do here. Gotta get your head out of that little black hole it likes to crawl into.



Did you find a new YouTube channel?

 

I'm not really passionate about anything, haven't had the energy to get passionate about anything in years. The only thing I can think of is obsessing about my complete lack of a love life.

And no I'm just watching FilthyFrank again.

 

Today I ate quinoa and am starting a regular workout, which is long overdue.

I'm gonna do my 15 minutes while I am in bed before I go to sleep.

 

Day 2

First Part

Again I am in a new place, so a lot of things I do are not done on autopilot. Specifically today I rearranged my room. Nothing profound, but it was good to clean up and be organized.

Second Part

Stopped and checked in with myself while driving to Walmart tonight. Realized I need to be more on top of errands and certain things I need to do.

 

Took a new rout home from the market today not a big change a noticeable one
after talking to my brother about a favorite debate topic took the time to sit and think about these talks instead of going about my day

 

06/2-day 2
1)today I decided to take a long way to school, consciously trying to be more aware of my surroundings; the cool wind, the trees, flowers, etc. and appreciating it. Also, Once I'd gotten home from school I was tired and hopped on the computer and really really felt the autopilot sneak in. I was just sitting there lethargic and spacing out, so I got up and closed the computer and did something constructive. Did the dishes, played my guitar and listened to music I hadn't heard in a long time! "Cool story, bro"... I know. But it was good actually noticing it and overcoming it. This challenge is turning out to be very useful!
2) I've been contemplating the points in my life in which I've experienced "honeymoon stages." That feeling of freshness, newness, excitement and energy. Having made the conscious decision to stop PMO and try to do better with other things as well, it seems a lot like one of those honeymoon stages. They always fade but the fact that I have my fiancé to help me and motivate me will stick around.

 

Day 3
Part 1: I have come clean with one of my intimate problems on my journal, which leaded to another relapse, and I just want to close the laptop and run away.
Part 2: I done that before sleeping, and I wrote that on the journal aswell. I feel like in "The Truman Show", and that is a bad feeling. I need to think deeply to what is happening to me, and I have at the same time to do the thing that I need to do in order to accomplish my goals. Let's have some balls.

Thanks guys.

 

Day 2
Part 1 - yesterday, I ta liked to different people. I see them everyday, but I normall have little or nothing to do with them. Got to hang around that day, and it's interesting to see how different people differ from who you know.
Part 2 - I like to think on my walks to school, and just walking in general. Yesterday, I thought a lot about what seems to make me happy. I'm having a bit of a fallout with my current hobbies, after years, they've began to deteriorate over time. Trying to find new things to help myself, and possibly others us proving to be a hard task. When comes to certain things, I am quite conservative, but that's why we are doing this challenge, to open up.

 

THAT'S what I'm talking about man. You're just gonna perpetuate a nonexistent love life by dwelling in those kind of thoughts. You attract to yourself what you think about believe it or not. Also you need some hobbies man. What are your hobbies?

Maybe this challenge can help grow your imagination, keep it up man.

And I'm gonna stop trying to offer advice, nothing will help if you don't have the right attitude and determination to reboot successfully.

GO KEEN WAH!

 

@Lord of Cinders Gwyn I want you to stop watching FilthyFrank. Can you do that for me?

I don't care what else you're watching on YT but I'm offering the helpful advice of quitting that one channel. I want you to try watching this channel in place of FF's:

https://www.youtube.com/user/GoldJacketLuke

Last advice I extend to you my Lord, and I will be looking forward to seeing your progress with this Challenge

 

Day 2

Part 1- I decided to get up at 4 AM..With the help of the faithful alarm clock and mostly willpower, I managed to wake up at 4:30 AM...If I were in autopilot mode, what I usually do is shut off alarm and go back to bed...I didn't let that happen today..Also managed to study something for 15 minutes

Part 2- As for silent contemplation...I fell asleep while contemplating but I feel I'm starting over for good

Stay strong comrades and Take care! cheers!

 

Day 1 : Finished my assignments early for once
For Part 2 : Meditated
One question how would you go by 1 friend a day ?
Praise The Sun

 

"Hit the gym. Hit the gym. Hit the gym." Not this meme again >.>

It's okay, I gave up on myself a while ago. So no worries if you do too ^^

 

Day 1
Part 1,
I woke up early and before any thoughts came in I got my running shoes on and went running for Half an hour, I normally run in the evening so was a nice change to get out first thing, Deffo cleared my mind.
Part 2.
I downloaded an app called Mindfulness and did day 1, struggled as thoughts of porn were so prominent from my recent binge but during the guided meditation the guy says now let your mind do whatever its wants and all I heard was a loud screaming sound, strange but true.

 

Day 3.
Part 1:
.I meditated until I fell asleep.
.I read "the willpower instinct" for 30 minutes.
.I worked out.
.I took my daily walk at 8PM.
Part 2:
.will be done before bed.

 

I'm not giving up I don't want to badger you. You are focusing on things that are keeping you down my friend.

 

I: I was passed by a d-BAG cyclist who thought he was hotshit. The fruitcake was decked out in faerie-boy spandex. Because I roll like a cool cat in everday street clothes on my bike he must've thought he was faster than me. He passed me quickly (lol I was listening to the Stuff You Should Know podcast, an episode called Road Rage as this was happening ahhahah). I immediately became inquisitive and aggressive as I saw him pass me. Is this guy legit? Is he faster than me?! I sped up in hot pursuit and within 30 seconds discovered he wasn't fast. My gut instinct was to furiously pass him and leave his lame poser ass in the dust. But I didn't. I stayed about 5 feet behind him, he didn't see me as I followed intentively, the episode of Road Rage keeping me in check. We reached a point where his tracks took a turn off course from mine. Lo and behold our tracks crossed about 2 minutes later and I left his ass in the dust to show him what's up. What was O3 (out of ordinary) with this was that I did not get rageful when he first passed, I stayed calm.

II: I pondered today in solitude the importance of being self reliant and self sufficient. Being this way is crucial to making the deepest lasting progress possible not only at NoFap, but just in improving one's life all around.

 

This is my first day of the June challenge!

Part 1:

I donate plasma twice a week. Usually I have my phone and sit in the waiting room dicking around on reddit. Not today, my friends! I left my phone at home and brought a book instead (My Struggle by Karl Ove Knausgaard). It was actually pretty goddamn cool. First of all, I get to read a book that's been sitting on my shelf since last September. Secondly, people ask what the book is and start a conversation based off of that. So there is reading and human interaction. Two great things.

As for part 2, every night I go out and sit on my roof and stargaze for a while. Sometimes I meditate, sometimes I just zone out. Either way, it is at least 15 minutes to sort of unwind.