+TenPercent

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I did not MO yesterday (wasn't easy!) That means that even by my old rules, I can't MO until next Monday, anything else would be a relapse. May 7, 2024 at 8:57 AM

+TenPercent was last seen:: May 7, 2024 at 9:00 AM

1. +TenPercent
  Day 30 - I am an orgasm addict and, for me, just one wank can take me out. How will my future partner really know that I won't go back?
  
  May 29, 2019
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  2. +TenPercent
    Well, the truth is. She may never know for sure. I may never know for sure!
    But today I am really grateful for my chastity device. I want to live with out it, but so far it has really helped me.
    I could not have thrown away all that porn without it.
    And if it can give her a little Peace of mind . . .
    
    May 29, 2019
    
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2. +TenPercent
  Day 29 still - threw away 55 magazines this evening. So hard. All I have left now are from 1970 or before, does that even count as porn? :P
  
  May 28, 2019
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  2. Coolbuddy7
    Throw away anything and everything that can bring you down. Doesn't matter when it's from. You can live without it ! Come on...
    
    May 29, 2019
    
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  3. Deleted Account
    from 1970... lol whaaaat how old are you?
    
    Jun 12, 2019
    
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  4. +TenPercent
    I was born in '74 . . . but I ended up trying to collect every issue of my favourite porn magazine all the way back to the first (US) issue in 1969. If I were still at it, that would be almost six hundred magazines!
    (I had about 400 at one point). Ugh.
    
    Jun 12, 2019
    
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3. +TenPercent
  Day 29 - Derailed by my work crush flirting with another guy! Not jealous, but her voice filled me w/ arousal. Determined to stay on course.
  
  May 28, 2019
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4. +TenPercent
  Day 28 - very grateful to have made it 4 solid weeks without masturbation or orgasm. :) I want this to be my "normal" and less of a struggle
  
  May 27, 2019
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  2. Deleted Account
    Awesome man :-) nicely done!
    
    May 27, 2019
    
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5. +TenPercent
  Day 27 - ok today. Mostly tired. Feels good to have less porn, especially "hard-core" porn. I still have more to purge.
  
  May 26, 2019
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6. +TenPercent
  Day 26 - purged porn yesterday, slept like a baby last night. Having a good day today.
  
  May 25, 2019
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7. +TenPercent
  Day 25 - barely survived last night . .and barely slept. My words for today are "Progress" and "Process". Need to go through my own process.
  
  May 24, 2019
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  2. +TenPercent
    Clarification on "Process": I have tremendous respect for people who quit porn cold turkey. One guy I knew filled a van with his collection and took it all to the dump.
    That hasn't been my process. I have been giving it up in small steps for years.
    I'm down to about 10 recorded videos now. Haven't watched any in years, but throwing them away?? I'm working on that.
    
    May 24, 2019
    
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  3. +TenPercent
    Wow, that first post seems so long ago. No wonder I am so sleepy!
    Had a great day. Told my trainer about my S addiction.
    Sold almost all of my (mostly sexy) comics.
    (watched and) Destroyed 5 DVDs, 2 VHS.
    
    May 24, 2019
    
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8. +TenPercent
  Day 24 - tempted to watch and destroy the last of my video porn (VHS & DVDs) . . . as if it may be the only way I can let it go. Last hurrah
  
  May 23, 2019
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  2. +TenPercent
    Maybe tomorrow. Idk. Destroyed one VHS tape without watching it. Tried to tackle one magazine. The non-nude back cover is too much for me to part with but I thought if I could just tear the cover off and shred it, I might be more willing to trash the whole thing. But then I saw the inside of the back cover (full penetration, etc.) and it was too much. I can't do it :(
    And now I'm wound up. Ugh.
    
    May 24, 2019
    
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9. +TenPercent
  Day 23 - wanting to purge my porn collection, but also feel on the verge of slipping. Old man told me "Easy Does It" (relax, no M tonight)
  
  May 22, 2019
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  2. !!Ranger!!
    For god sake get rid of that shit..it is almost month
    
    May 23, 2019
    
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10. +TenPercent
  Day 21 - struggled with sexual feelings today but after 4 straight hours of recovery this evening I'm too tired to do anything but go to bed
  
  May 21, 2019
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11. +TenPercent
  Day 20 - still going strong. My desire for sexual release isn't there so much, but my desire for female companionship is hitting me hard!
  
  May 19, 2019
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12. +TenPercent
  Day 19 - survived day 18, felt lazy all day but went to 2 meetings (incl. first SA). Asked a man in AA to be my sponsor. So . . . good day.
  
  May 18, 2019
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13. +TenPercent
  Day 18 - kind of feel like my b***s might burst. I love having less porn but need to be careful of what I see and imagine as I throw it away
  
  May 17, 2019
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  2. +TenPercent
    Eek, feel like I'm going to cum any minute!! Tried a cold shower, prayer. Last time I felt like this (4/29), I tried using a chastity device and ejaculated while trying to put it on. Ugh. This feeling is getting stronger instead of going away . . . time for the Panic Button.
    
    May 17, 2019
    
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  3. +TenPercent
    Using the chastity device, darn it. I was really hoping I could get through without the device. Made it 18 days, at least. Just praying that I can get through this without a release!
    
    May 17, 2019
    
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14. +TenPercent
  Day 17 - threw out 20 DVDs yesterday and 5 more today. Struck me (hard) today that my cuckold fantasies are slipping away. I choose LOVE. :)
  
  May 16, 2019
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15. +TenPercent
  Day 16 - People think I'm crazy. I know I'm crazy. I need this. I am HUNGRY for an orgasm-free life, one filled with meaningful connection.
  
  May 15, 2019
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16. +TenPercent
  Day 15 (PM) - long day but good. It takes so much work to get well and it's keeping me busy. Worth it. Deleted 19 images today off my phone.
  
  May 14, 2019
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  2. Deleted Account
    Congrats on completing 2 weeks man! Keep fighting strong :)
    
    May 15, 2019
    
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17. +TenPercent
  Day 15 - Bodily urges. How often I'm tempted to just O and start all over. I mustn't!! I want to stay on course until it becomes my normal.
  
  May 14, 2019
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  2. Deleted Account
    That's the spirit!
    
    May 14, 2019
    
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18. +TenPercent
  Day 14 - major milestone. The worst of my post-orgasmic turmoil should be over now. Not feeling it, though. Going to 2 meetings tonight . .
  
  May 13, 2019
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19. +TenPercent
  Day 13 - Great meeting last night. 4 in 2 days. Couldn't sleep, tho. Co-worker fantasies. Gym, 10+ hour work day, then meeting tonight. Ugh.
  
  May 12, 2019
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  2. +TenPercent
    Had a less than perfect day, but despite feeling really tired, I think I mostly made good choices.
    Skipped the gym, work was good, the meeting was okay.
    Really looking forward to honouring 2 weeks without an orgasm tomorrow afternoon!
    
    May 12, 2019
    
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20. +TenPercent
  Day 12 - three meetings in the past 24 hours. Feeling better. Need a sufficient alternative to porn and fantasy. Need real connection.
  
  May 11, 2019
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Orgasm Addict. Compulsive Masturbator. Porn, Fantasy and Edging Addict. Longest streaks without O: 55, 63, 125, 129, 134, 154d.; without M: 191 days; without P: 454 days.
Best "imperfect" Streak = 325 days w/ one M slip (MO @125, WD @259, sex @ 296)
0 unauthorized voluntary releases (i.e. M) (of 4) in 2023 vs 18/22 in 2022 13/25 in 2021, 24/42 in 2020, 5/18 in 2019, 40/43 in 2018 and 82/82 in 2017.
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