Halfway through day 5. Mehn.. movies these days arent making things easy. Everything is getting sexualised. Just watched a movie and i'm getting stupid thoughts already.
Checkin' in; day 13. Need some opinions if somebody is reading this please. Had a wet dream today. The worst part was that it was a lucid dream, so my wet dream might be considered masturbation, cos I intentionally induced it by starting to have sex during wet dream. Masturbation is defined as stimulating one's genitals for pleasure, which did happen, just not with my hands but through my mind only. But also it was sex in a dream and not MO in a dream, so technically it was sex. But then again dream is MO cos I am having sex with myself in my head. I'm confused. Does intentionally induced wet dream via having sex during lucid dream is considered masturbation? I did not touch myself once I woke up, in fact I tried to stop it by flexing PC, didn't work tho. I know that generally wet dreams are not considered relapse in this community because they are out of one's control. The thing though is that it was lucid dream. I am not sure how much control I had, maybe not 100%, but I did had a lot, due to me being lucid during a dream. So that's what I am thinking of. If it would be just a normal wet dream I would not be worried. Anyhow, still day 13 without masturbating to porn or watching porn, so challenge continues in some form at least...
It's day 8 and I almost went to one of those peep shows. And Im still fighting the urge. I'm trying to find a reason not too
I cannot lie to myself nor to you all. So here it comes. I PMO ed yesterday. I was alone at home after coming back from some errands. Wife had gone to office. I could not control my urge and lost it. I feel so bad and guilty and weak. I think loneliness was my trigger. I am going to reset the trigger and start all over again. I let you all down. Sorry about that. Any advice?
Day 15/14 I didn't knew that I completed 14-days challenge yesterday. I am so happy that I complete it.
day 12. Help another if you can. Remember that when you work on yourself you will attract your right partner. Peace
Get up and start again. Hope you identified why you went down and have safeguards in place? Wanna be an AP?